Bipolar Check-in #82

Here's a fresh start! I will link to it on the last thread.

Fresh starts can be exciting ...


I feel well today! I take it easy, but have studied, gone for a walk, been to the grocery shop and have had my dinner already.

I feel satisfied and hopeful!

Am sending good wishes to all here!

Good morning! I slept really well last night. Sat outside for 45 minutes today and finished reading a book. Feel really good today. Not much going on till Sunday I have my volunteer shift with the rescue kitties. Other than that just enjoying life. Reading, watching the show Supernatural, and watching some anime too.

My day should be relaxing too. My mood is still stable, and I'm sleeping well until my cat Pecan starts jumping and walking all over me around 5 AM.

I went for a walk/jog this morning, showered, had breakfast, and finished reading my latest book. I've been reading a lot lately and enjoying it, reading more than watching TV or playing on my iPad. Today looks like it might be a stormy day, perfect for reading mysteries

Hope everyone has a wonderful day!

Good morning 🌤️

I had trouble getting up today. Just wanted to lay in bed. There’s very little on the calendar until November. There’s games after lunch but those become blah, if I do them day after day. I have a blood donation and a dentist appointment coming up. That’s it for September. In November I have a couple of art classes and thanksgiving. Maybe I should go back to the senior club. Gotta get up a bit early for that. Not drastically early, hmmm I need something to keep me occupied so I don’t fall into a depression caused by lack of stimulation. Winter with its darkness and cold is always tricky to navigate.

I finally caved in and went to immediate care today. I had tried since Sunday to take care of my shoulder myself. But yesterday it was causing nausea and vomiting and today I just figured I should get it checked out.

I had to wait a bit but once I got in the doctor was very nice. She did an exam and then sent me for the xray. They did a lot of diffrent xrays. I have mild AC joint arthirtis, regular arhritis, and bone spurs. She sent in a script for a steroid and told me not to lift anything.

I googled this stuff and it sounds a bit freaky but I'm trying not to worry. I'm mainly worried about the steroid side effects. I messaged my pdoc and asked if it was ok to take it for 5 days or if I should go get the shot instead.

Idk why I'm falling apart at age 31. I just know it will be a lot easier to keep getting SSI and medicare for this physical stuff if things go down the toilet next year.

The volunteer coordinator texted me to tell me the person who was supposed to volunteer tonight can’t make it in and asked if I could do I’m going in tonight from 6pm to 8pm to volunteer with the rescue kitties

@ dewed, your diet affects arthritis. If i eat meat or real cheese, i get a very achy hip as well as achy all over. Plus they say soda leaches calcium out of your bones which is not good for them.

So you might not be falling apart exactly, but the chickens do come home to roost on occasion!

Idk why but the dramamine seems to be the culpirit of my sugar cravings. When I take some I'm drinking a lot of soda. When I don't its just maintence coffee or iced tea and water.

What about bone spurs? Sounds like something you put in soup.

Had a good volunteer shift. Ended up going in early. All the kitties were so sweet. There was a bonded pair there, they were both mostly white with a few very small patches of black, and they were named coconut and toast lol they were so cute

The bonded pair sound cute, love their names. Thanks. Blue bird 🐦 hearing your stories of the rescue place reminds me of when I volunteered for Texas shelter.

Hey there @Nammu - I hope you end up going to the senior center to get some more activities going. I know my full schedule keeps me on top of my mental health.

@Blue_Bird always an inspiration to me, I love coconut and toast names so cute!! LOL

Today was a milestone for me. I wasn't going to go, but at the last minute, I told my boss that I needed today off because I wanted to go to an organization a good friend of mine started called Recovery Alive's ribbon cutting ceremony today in Smithfield. I am so proud of all she has accomplished and wanted to go and support her. I don't know why, but something just pulled me to go, even though I felt bad that I took off the only day of the week I go into work. BUT it was so incredible. I met so many people in recovery and made so many connections while I was there. Networking is one of my best skills, and I really worked the room at this event - I am going to start working with this new amazing organization in September, it is really going to help me propel myself in the career I've always dreamed about - and to think I almost didn't go.

Monthly "lady time" came with a vengeance and knocked me off my high horse this afternoon, and even though I feel generally icky, nothing is going to stop this incredible mood. I feel like God led me to this path and to this organization that focuses on the 12-Steps of Recovery through the bible and their church.

Just incredible.

I didn’t sleep last night and stayed up all day. I feel like crap. The yeast kit is working after the first of 3 days.

I've been feeling depressed since I got home from work. Depressed and lonely. Knowing I needed to skip my walk (I'm trying to get a 15 minute walk in every day after school) because of my physical health triggered this. And, lonely because I don't have much to do or work towards outside of work. I really want to grow my friendship circle, but have no idea how to.

As of now, a friend and I have lunch plans on Saturday so, hopefully, that will help.

I really wish they were showing the paraolympics on regular channels. I'd really enjoy watching that.

Today was better than yesterday. When i couldn't tolerate any of my activities this afternoon i didn't get frustrated, i just sat quietly and enjoyed the silence, peace, and privacy. I took my dog out and walked her, and did the recycling, so i got a couple things done. I lit my candles this evening and enjoyed them. I tried to go in a ZOOM support group but it was too unpleasant so i quit. I feel a little discouraged but at least i didn't have the painful boredom of yesterday again. Glad i don't have a partner nagging me to be active and social.

But not everything is diet related and sometimes people just have weird bodies at any age.

I haven't been asked about my diet at all by any of my doctors. Or what to eat. Except by one doctor who told me to drink milk instead of take vitamin D pills.

Before you read this, trust me,, I know I'm stupid and HOLY FK! I do NOT typically and this time I did NOT have a trip sitter. I'm not certain if there is a hell, but I made out with the devil so I think I'm going there...except I may have fought her off?

I'm really sorry I haven't been here that much. Things have been rough.

If anyone remembers what I said about certain side effects from certain meds and what I'd do, well, those came about, so...yeah...psychotic or feeling tortured by a chemical are my options. I think psychotic looks better. Just a personal preference (I am staying on Quetiapine, but I will NEVER take Haldol again and that's kinda what brought me down this time, but things are different and I don't even want the option to take it now.

It’s 4am, I tried sleeping, will try again. But not having a good night. 🌙. Will try going back to bed soon, but it’s hot in there.

I was way too wired to sleep last night. Was well after midnight when I started dozing. Hubbys alarm went off at 5:30
And now I’m wide awake.

Can I still
Be a little manic?

Same issue. Our ac went out last nights

I never sleep well when the AC goes out, especially in summer. I hope you are able to get it fixed soon?

I never got hot.
Just too
Wired.

They’re
Gonna
Look at it today hopefully

I picked up my steroid half an hour ago. The pharamacy says it can cause an increase in my anxiety and can cause an increase in mood swings and stuff. I've been on a sterioid for some kinda viral infection but that was just 5 pills once a day. This is a set of 21 pills I have to take at certain times of the day before meals. Like today theres 6 pills and I just took the first 2 before breakfast. Then the pills keep getting less until by day 6 theres only one I take with breakfast. I've never been on anything like it before.

I didn't sleep too good because of the pain and I forgot melatonin.

Overall I feel ok right now. Not feeling much of anything

I'm a bit dizzy right now. But its only for 5 days. I do have a call into my pdoc and message into my pcp asking if I should be concerned about any of this.

I don't have any labor day plans unless my sister comes over. I used to go out of state but that was when my cousins kids weren't in school. I don't really like it when they come over for dinner. My mom invites them to come over at 2 for a 5PM dinner and its like 8 by the time they end up eating a burned dinner and I'm long asleep by then. My brother in law and sister both have ADD.

Sorry for the long post. Its only for 5 days

I ended up taking a left over pain pill and an extra sleeping pill. Worked like a miracle. I fell a sleep right away and stayed asleep until almost 11. I’m not groggy at all, wide awake. So not a lot of sleep but deep. I’ll take it!

I slept from 9:30 to 11 so over 12 hours last night. I feel a lot better! I also opted for Diet Coke instead of coffee at Panera with my lunch. It has quite a bit less caffeine than their coffee. Still feeling much improved after the 2nd day of anti fungal cream. Only one more day to go. My A1C is normal! No diabetes or pre diabetes! Waiting for my case manager to get back to me.