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Trig Sep 05, 2024 at 04:09 PM
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I mean, I have the baseline passive SI, and then the BPD really intense out of nowhere thoughts and plans that I only act on like 30% of the time, and BP depression which is ok to manage, but mixed needs to be fixed ASAP or someoone will get hurt.

I don't even know where I am right now.

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Default Sep 05, 2024 at 04:34 PM
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When it’s that bad it’s best to go in. But do go to groups and make use of the resources available.

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Default Sep 05, 2024 at 04:55 PM
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I agree it's best to go in.

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Default Sep 05, 2024 at 04:59 PM
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I probably won't even do anything harmful though. An hour ago I was ready to do stuff that would get edited out, but I'm back to only wishing my brain, especially the stem, had zero activity, so I'm good right?

I do go to groups too, but they're stupid. I've had a staff member say you can will your body into doing whatever you want. I don't think I can will my arm off or will myself into not having hep.

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Default Sep 05, 2024 at 07:49 PM
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My crisis person said to go to the ER if I have plan and intent, which is cool because almost every attempt I’ve had was a decision made 10 minutes before trying but with a lot of distress leading up. But no intent at this second so I’m fine

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Default Sep 05, 2024 at 07:59 PM
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why not go in a just chat with the on call doc? youve been really struggling and id like to see you be ok

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I’ve been chatting with my team on and off for 6 hours now.

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If you've been chatting off & on for 6 hr, I'd say it's time to bite the bullet & go in.

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Default Sep 06, 2024 at 07:52 AM
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I’m supposed to talk with someone in person today. I seriously think going will cause more harm than good,
Especially considering it’s a Friday and they probably won’t have a bed until Monday or Tuesday and if I spend that much time in the ER I will probably lose all impulse control and get restrained…again.

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Someone is meeting me at the ER and I’m here right now

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Someone is meeting me at the ER and I’m here right now
whats happening now? you ok???

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@MuddyBoots, hope you're okay!

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I am happy that you went in. You need a good look at what meds you are on and then safely adjust them in a safe environment.
That is what I did 3 years ago my meds stopped working and I needed a safe place to change them up.
I have been stable ever sense.
good luck I say.
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I’m glad you are safe now!

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Default Sep 07, 2024 at 05:03 PM
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Glad to hear you went to the ER where they can evaluate you and keep you safe. I’ve been there with needing hospitalization. It’s never fun but they do tend to get you stabilized.
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I'm glad you went to the ER. Hopefully, they can get you stabilized.

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I hope you’re doing okay MuddyBoots. Thinking of you

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