[Victoria'smom]

So my head is loud.
I'm confused.
Thought about blood letting when I was alone today.
Now the red dot on the fire alarm is making me think it recording.
I just bought food but it's contaminated.
The milk tastes wrong.

But I don't want to tell anyone. H knows some. We have a toddler staying with us for an unknown amount of time. I don't want to go down this road. I don't want to change medicine because what if it's worse. I can't make changes while in charge of a child.

[bizi]

Try to ground yourself.
take the toddler to a near by park or just stay close to home and play with this toddler.

[divine1966]

I am sorry you are not well. I do not believe you can or need or should be in charge of a toddler at the moment. Not telling others is not the right choice imho. Whoever is normally in charge of the toddler need to take care of the kid or is there anyone who could do while you aren’t doing well?

Could you call your doctor ASAP?

[Blueberrybook]

You need to tell your H and your pdoc. You definitely do not need to be taking care of a toddler with all this going on.

Please take care of yourself.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm doing fine with the toddler. H is helping me with him.

[Nammu]

If you are having psychosis , thinking of blood letting and staying in bed all day, having paranoid symptoms I do not believe you are fine with a toddler.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm not staying in bed all day. I get up at 6 nap at 11 then bed around 10. I talked to t she got me into a np tomorrow at 2 pm. You wouldn't be able to tell if I didn't say anything. I go out m, w, f to children events. We learn our letters and read, color and play Legos the rest of the day . Just because I'm honest doesn't mean I can't take care of things.

[HALLIEBETH87]

im very functional with psychosis for a while too.

right now im worried about my pdoc wanting me to end up IP like maybe she gets extra $$ for it and thats why she wont help me. im confused.

anyway-hang in there!!

[divine1966]

Is there a parent or a guardian or a caregiver or social service who normally have custody of this child? If they say it’s ok then I guess it’s fine. You said you didn’t want anyone to know how you are feeling, if it wasn’t a big deal you’d find it easy to tell people like if you had a cold

I worry about yours and a little ones well being. If I thought that food from the grocery store is contaminated, alarm clock is recording me and I wanted to let blood, my daughter and son in law would need to know before leaving me alone with my toddler grandson. They’d not be ok not knowing. Please don’t keep these kind of things in secret.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm not alone! I'm functional and this doesn't effect him. And it's completely BS that anyone besides my treatment team and husband needs to know.

[raspberrytorte]

@Victoria'smom

I'm worried about YOU. I one hundred percent believe you are capable of taking care of this kid. I just don't want you to push yourself too much. I did that while psychotic and taking care of my daughter and it didn't end well. So please just make sure you're taking care of yourself as well. 🫂 ❤️

[HALLIEBETH87]

How ya doing honey?

[Victoria'smom]

I'm switching to vraylar and he's leaving next week.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Victoria'smom

I'm switching to vraylar and he's leaving next week.

After two weeks on Vraylar I feel much less manic and my normal emotions have come back after I went emotionally dead on the higher dose of Rispetdal.? I can cry again and I’m not spending so much money. I still have a big credit card bill from the manic spending but I will pay it off as quickly as I can.

[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

@Victoria'smom

I'm worried about YOU. I one hundred percent believe you are capable of taking care of this kid. I just don't want you to push yourself too much. I did that while psychotic and taking care of my daughter and it didn't end well. So please just make sure you're taking care of yourself as well. 🫂 ❤️

^^This

Just because you can, doesn't mean you should. You could be a great caretaker for the time, but that doesn't mean it won't be too stressful for you to handle. I get it's totally possible to function as needed and maybe even further in psychosis if you have insight, but do everything in your power to not stress yourself out more than you have to.

I do agree they should know though. They don't need to know every little detail, but maybe just a "Victoria'smom is struggling a bit," and provide reassurance that it is not just you taking care of him and you're functioning and in control of yourself, and that if H thinks things are going south you guys will let them know.

I hope the Vraylar helps.