My new T isn’t working out

She thinks everything stems from trauma and can be cured by therapy. Even psychosis. In fact she thinks psychosis is your own thoughts and that you actually want to do what the voices are telling you to because you are angry. She said my aunt had been molested by her father when I told her she has anorexia and bullemia. She says I am traumatized but there isn’t ska specific instance of abuse that I told her. Just having an alcoholic dad my whole life is trauma yes but she was saying everything was trauma and there were no good parts to my life. Yeah. I need a new therapist. This one doesn’t believe in psych meds and even cut me short when I started to tell her how I hadn’t slept much the night before.

I'm sorry you had such a rough appointment.

She’s been this way- everything is trauma- since I started with her back in August. Psychosis can be cured as it’s only your own thoughts that you’re having that you control. She cut me off during our zoom session when I tried to tell her I hadn’t slept much and was feeling off and manic. She also said she didn’t want to hear about my Vraylar even though it’s evened my mood out and gotten rid of my commanding voices that have been plaguing me for over a year. To top it off she asked why I think I’m bipolar as if 20 years of Pdoc telling me I have it and multiple hospitalizations wasn’t enough.

Leave she's dangerous. As a person that fights meds, lacks insight, would rather just try harder. She could be deadly to me. I need to talk about my symptoms and med compliance.

That’s what my friend who happens to be a therapist said- she dangerous and everything is trauma to her- leave her!

I'm kind of a terrible person, but I would give up on receiving any "regular therapy" with her and fkkk so badly around getting satisfaction over her trying to attribute feeling "awakened," not sleeping for days straight (asking her if she sleeps and insulting her when she says she does), saying everyone is going to write me in on the ballot and I'm not sure if I can handle being sheriff and president at the same time, occasionally in the room look over at the door and "answer questions someone else asked," cancel the occasional appointment saying "I can't come in, the mole people have my balls in a vice," put a (non-venomous) snake in my backpack and give it to her as a gift to heal her other clients, (you get the jist) to trauma (while also doing all I know to make her come as close to possible for her to think I'm not traumatized).

I know. I know. Better uses of your time, probably healthier uses too, go find those, but some therapists need to be broken into their field like a wild horse, and I want to play that cowboy.

In all seriousness, yeah, drop that woman and find someone who will actually help (if you want, spread the word on how horrible she is including to the pdoc who referred you to her).

Good morning. I have decided I need a new therapist. First and foremost my therapist believes that psychosis and psychotic breaks are what you actually want to happen and that meds are bad for you. I couldn't disagree more. She also sees trauma in everything. Even insinuating it where there is none. I'm still doing well on the Vraylar. Sleep is back to normal.

I thought we were just getting to know each other but she and I really clashed. She gave me things to think about but on the whole I think she had deeply held beliefs that aren't my experience or beliefs.

My case manager is going to set me up with a new therapist.

My friend/penpal said it sounds like she has an ax to grind and she’s taking it out on her patients.

How to tactfully say I quit because your theories are batshit crazy!.

Ghost her. That's what I would do. You don't owe her an explanation.

You don't need to explain yourself beyond letting her know you're not going to continue with her. Or if you for you must say something just tell her therapy isn't working out for you and leave it at that; it's not necessary to go into the reasons why.

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Just for curiosity’s sake…..

My main gripe with her though there are many is I told her that ”Why do you want to kill Scott?” She replied. Why are you mad at him? She can’t understand that I don’t! I’m not mad at him in the least! It’s just the psychosis plaguing me. In actuality, I love Scott and would never harm him and he knows this and says he’s not scared of me. She can’t understand this.