Bipolar Check-in #83

Nothing happened after I took the Evail. I had some heartburn but I slept from 9-5 or so and I woke up feeling a lot better physically and feeling fine mental health. I don't even care if my therapist switches to telehealth anymore on Monday. So my weird feelings for her are gone. Why can't I just take the med. I swear my pdoc is overeacting. Zofran causes intense anxiety and irritation for me. And migraines which it says it might right on the bottle.

Anyways I don't have any plans today. I did a lot this week and next week I have stuff too. I did order groceries from Walmart.

@Nammu

To hide something, ie enclose in the trigger function, there is a shortcut in the edit box (the fonts, etc). It is the red circle x to the right. You hit it, and it sets you up to hide stuff.

It even puts the cursor at the right spot!

@Brentus good to hear from you! Great that you're able to work again too, even if it's stressful (that is a lot of duties to cover!). I'd hope that as time goes on and things get going, things will flow more smoothly. Practice makes perfect when it comes to saying no, too. Just sayin'

An alternative way if you don't want to go to the "more advanced" reply page (I don't know if anyone else feels the same, but sometimes that feels like more of a pain) is just typing [ TRIGGER ] (triggering content) [ / TRIGGER ] without the spaces

Trying to motivate my butt to go for a walk. It's beautiful out. I want to head to a more scenic area than the local park or around the area, but it's a bluebird Saturday in October in NH, and I'm not sure if seeing yellow/orange/red mountains is worth the millions of people around. I have spots in mind that are lesser known, but driving and parking in a lot of those places won't be fun. I want to get someone to come with me too, but no dice so far. Maybe I'll wait for midweek and head up solo. If I can organize myself and be awake I might even hike an easier mountain or hill. Sounds better.

I got some orders for x rays from my PCP yesterday. I was just writing about not being sure, but of course playing around with the finger in question and realized I can bend it further back than forwards and that's probably not a good sign. I don't know if they'd be able to actually do anything about it if it even was something that showed up on x ray so that makes me think it's kinda pointless.

Its not more advanced! Im not that kind of girl! Its just regular reply!

Also i hope they can do something for your finger before it freezes that way!

Can I get some insight? I have these little red blisters all over my arms and chest and I just picked at one and it started bleeding.

Is this serious?

Allergic to laundry detergent?

Its been the same laundry detergent.

I did start a new med though and I've been very tired lately and not hungry.

Chicken pox? I know it’s rare but I had lots of red bumps that turned into blisters.

@Nammu

Thanks for the latuda info! I'm not worried about weight gain. I'm already on seroquel. Can't be worse than that!

@Mountaindewed

Allergic reaction to new medication? Stress? Random, but I was so stressed out once we got my daughter home from the hospital after she was born I broke out in itchy red bumps on my shoulders and chest too. Kind of sounds like what you have. Doctors told me it was from stress.

I know it's not really more advanced, but to get the button you have to press "go advanced" unless it's a reply that automatically brings you to the "official reply page" or whatever you want to call it instead of the quick reply button. (I changed the theme though, so maybe it's laid out different?)

But let's be honest, is there such a thing as "regular reply?" I KNOW NO REGULARITIES! (you can ask my ovaries)

Oh, i never do post quick! I have EXTREMELY long pages, and that is at the bottom of the page. I have my profile set for last posted at top. Plus i was always very regular.

I forget, are you on Lamictal (and had any recent dose changes or have been taking it inconsistently)?

I wouldn't think it's too serious, but I'm just saying if I were on Lamictal, and how I take it's changed, and got a rash all over my arms and chest, I'd freak. I know SJS is really rare, but my first NP that prescribed it instilled the fear.

I know you've already had a couple other replies too, and I'm going to say allergy to something else or stress is more likely. We're getting fall changes here and I tend to get rashes just from the air changes (drier, dust from heat kicking on, different pollen, etc.) so that could be it.

I am on lamictal but I've been on the same dose for awhile

I do worry a lot about SJS. They are not itchy though and Dr. Google says it could be like leukemia or some scary ****. But yeah I have been pretty stressed.

I'm thinking of getting my B12 levels checked. I have most of the symptoms and my GI stuff can be the cause of a defiency.

@raspberrytorte we have had the windows open nonstop these last couple of weeks. I have a doctors appointment on Tuesday. I can ask him. We did finally just turn on the air and it feels great.

Got my brand new black pea coat in the mail. Fits like a glove, and only cost sixty dollars! Only problem is that some of the buttons are discolored kinda brown, so they're going to need to be replaced. 😔 Easy enough fix though! No problems.

Concert last night was great.🌙🤘 Bands were amazing. Husband and I had a fun time. Had three beers, which I normally don't do because of my meds and I don't particularly enjoy how alcohol makes me feel, but I have a soft spot for Blue Moon 💙 and it was hot in there! I had to squeeze my way out of a crowd of people and a mosh pit at one point. Feeling particularly tired and lazy today though. Yawn. My cat wouldn't let me sleep in longer because she was hungry, so I was like, "Fine! I'll get up!" About to doze off right now though.

Daughter's thirteenth birthday is on Wednesday. I'm going to be really obnoxious and write TEENAGER on her cake in black icing. HAHAHAHA. We already call her a teenager and she always gets defensive and says, "I'm not a teenager!!!!" She certainly acts like one. Lol.

KMFDM in Milwaukee is week after next! Yippie!

Shyt man. I just remembered my scary psychiatrist appointment on Monday. Going to have anxiety diarrhea now!

We have to take our male cat to the vet on Monday too so we can get a refill on his prescription cat food. Poor guy has to get a thermometer up the butt. 😟 Feel so bad for him. Lol. Oh yawn.

What else?

@June08

It's great you can tolerate wellbutrin at all! That shyt made me so anxious it was intolerable. I couldn't stand it. I wish it would have worked out for me. Makes me very sad it didn't.

I'm having racing thoughts today. I haven't been able to concentrate to read well at all

im obsessing. and im pissed off at ben

"So why aren't you doing the things you usually do? You haven't been doing anything for weeks."

"Because, as I mentioned weeks ago, I've been freaking depressed"

"And you weren't depressed last week?"

"Yes, I was. But I couldn't cancel the trip"

"And you're still depressed now?"

"Yes I think I am, but maybe I'm just getting used to it now"

"Sure."

Conversation with my wife.