Bipolar Check-in #83

ugh my husband thinks hes more qulified abotu my meds than my dr thinsk to do google. fool my dr has been a dr longer than youve been alive!!!

I'm sorry Hailey.

I spent the day with a few friends. Well, two friends and one person who only talks to me when this group of people is together. It was nice to see them but also reminded me of how much I've pulled into myself lately. I'm not really sure what happened. I'm naturally a quiet person, but for some time now I've struggled with things to say when with people. My mind is completely blank and then, afterwards, I sometimes barely remember what we talked about even though I thought I was present. If I work hard to remember, I usually can, but it slips my mind pretty quickly.

I didn't get up as early as I wanted to today because I really needed to sleep, but that means I need to get a ton done tomorrow since I slept in and was at my friend's house all day. The end of first quarter is this week so there is a lot of grading, especially since they only give us a few days after the end of the quarter to submit final grades. They made our grades due during our fall break, which is right after the quarter ends.

My depression hasn't been to bad today but my anxiety is up, especially when I think about the week ahead.

Ugh. I think our fridge that looks like it hasn't been replaced since 1955 (slight exaggeration lol) is slowly dying. The light in it keeps on going off and then it feels like it stops cooling. Have to call the apartment manager on Monday about it. What a hassle. I hope they can fix it without needing to completely replace it. That would be such a pain in the a*s.

Editing raspberry coming in: Oh, and my mom texted me out of nowhere. Fudgcicle. I don't know what to do. I'm thinking about just not responding.

I’m feeling blue.

We went to visit my partner’s dad in hospital. He’s much the same.

Came home and put lessons up for my students even though I’m not going to be in tomorrow. I feel freaked out and I’m not sure why.

I can't sleep because of this dumb stomach pain and nausea. I took zofran and tylenol. my anxiety and moods are decent. I have a pdoc appointment at 3 on Monday and I'm not sure if I'll have an answer about another GI med by then. It depends on my pdoc. My GI doc is really on top of things.

I have some purplish red spots on the right side of my stomach too. I just picked one and it bled

I don't know what easy bleeding means but I checked my blood the other day with my pinkie feeling and the kleenex was pretty full of blood. Just from checking my blood.