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Yesterday at 11:30 PM
#181
Damn it. I just made the mistake of looking back at old pictures of myself on Facebook. Now I'm going to start bawling. I'm so fcking OLD looking now and FAT.
😭😭😭😭 I hate getting old. It makes me cry. I'm haggard. I'm HIDEOUS. __________________ The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "I'm scared. I'm old. I want to go home!" 😁 - anonymous |
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Today at 03:24 AM
#182
Another night of crappy sleep. I finally fell asleep at 2 and woke at 3:55 with another nightmare. Now I'm awake and trying to relax enough to go back to sleep.
If anyone ever doubts that my cat is an ESA as soon as I came back from the bathroom after I woke up she came and curled up on my lap and is sleeping deeply there, making sure I'm taken care of and loved. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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Today at 05:58 AM
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__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Today at 06:00 AM
#184
@HALLIEBETH87
I'm so sorry about your cat. The exact same thing happened to one of our cats last December, kidney issues & we had to put her to sleep unexpectedly at the vet visit when we just thought she was sick and would get some medication and be OK. It was really hard. Losing a pet is like losing a member of your family. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Today at 06:01 AM
#185
@Blue_Bird
I am on propranolol for anxiety, have been for quite awhile. It helps a little though definitely not as much as a benzo. I also have prn hydroxyzine for anxiety, and that helps more than propranolol, still not as much as a benzo but makes me sleepier than klonopin did. I hope you get something to help. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Today at 06:02 AM
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__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Today at 06:06 AM
#187
@raspberrytorte
I'm sorry. Old pictures make me feel that way too. I was SOO skinny especially when I was breastfeeding, absolutely could not keep weight on. Now I look at those pictures and wish I were back there (though logically I know I was too skinny then). Getting older is rough. Every day I look it in the mirror, it seems I have more and more gray hair. I guess the only positive is that I am blond and gray shows up a bit less with blond hair. But still...sigh. And OMG, I saw a wedding picture of me the other day. I was skinnier but not too skinny, had a lot fewer wrinkles and back then, not to brag but I looked a so much like a young Grace Kelly in those pics. Ugh. I miss those days. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Today at 06:12 AM
#188
I'm going to the dermatologist today, and I'm anxious about that. I haven't been since before the pandemic. Because of my coloring, she always finds moles to remove & biopsy. I know I have one, in a bit uncomfortable space that makes me nervous and moles change so slowly I can't tell if it's changed or not. But it's one of those flat ones, larger than a pencil eraser with a blurry circumference, definitely one of those to make me nervous.
__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Today at 06:19 AM
#189
@Blueberrybook
I take 150mg in the AM and 150mg in the PM. I think I'm having a midlife crisis or something because around midnight last night found me wail bawling on the kitchen floor about how old I am and my life is half over and I'm hideous and look like I'm 65, with my husband sitting by me and saying, "No you you don't. So what. We'll grow old together!" I don't know what's wrong with me. But I only got three hours of sleep last night and I'm wide awake and can't sleep and just want to start crying again. __________________ The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "I'm scared. I'm old. I want to go home!" 😁 - anonymous |
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Today at 06:35 AM
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Today at 06:49 AM
#191
I slept awful. I wanted to selfharm all night. Why can I just get stable again
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Today at 07:17 AM
#192
My mom just texted. Her cairn terrier, 10, is at the emergency vet on oxygen and getting X-rays. She's had a worsening cough since she got some teeth pulled yesterday. I’m at Panera drinking coffee crying.
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