Bipolar Check-in #83

I am trying to boost my mindfulness by noticing my body and how I'm feeling.

It has only been a few days, but I am starting to notice some patterns. I'm not doing anything about it just yet, just practicing noticing and acknowledging.

My depression is much better than a couple of weeks ago but my anxiety is up now (it was lower when I was more depressed).

I went out with family and friends last night to watch the aurora and after chasing them for a long time, I finally saw them! Got lots of pics (attached)

@Scooter9
What a gorgeous picture! I'm so jealous! You can't see anything like an aurora where I live.

@raspberrytorte How are you doing? I am worried about you too

@Scooter9 that's a great picture! They were beautiful last night, we got lucky that it cleared up. They had pictures of it from as far south as Bedford, NH!

We got a place.

Ughh I knew the post I just typed out would *poof* so I saved it. Except I didn't and just deleted it instead of copying it...

Anyway, I woke up 2 hours before the alarm after having trouble falling asleep, and here's a pic from a gorgeous day of hiking in rainy 40F weather.

@victoriasmom Did you get an accessible apartment? If you did that's wonderful!

we're in phase 2 the last step will be to sign the lease. It's accessable to me right now but not if I ever needed full time wheelchair use. It has a walk in shower, laundry in unit, open kitchen, pool so I can exercise and get stronger next year, fitness classes, a park on property, bus, and community activities so I don't isolate. It also has grocery store within my ability to walk too.

Now we're applying for moving assistance.

@MuddyBoots, that's a great view! Definitely worth the effort to get there.

I wasn't really sick last night. I just had a bad migraine and so I turned off everything and slept for 10 hours straight. I feel fine today although I feel like the migraine is starting to come back. I'm wearing my glasses. I wonder if its a med side effect or some ****.

Feeling kinda good today. I hated being "that guy" but the slimy finance company we partnered with wouldn't dignify me with a chance to speak, so I did workarounds and has our DMS reach out to higher ups on their end to send the message down to get into contact with me. They are still trying hard to hold onto what they shorted us, but with all the hell I've given them over $200-- I think our chances may be better to get it back this time around. I won't bore you with the total drama saga , but basically I put a deal through (my first deal with them, and in general) to the finance company and my sales rep didnt reach out at all at any point beyond telling me what stipulations the customer needed to give still. What offer we accepted, and the customer, had a specific lender fee -- I made a small mistake in income verification type and they upped the fee (guy was military) by $200 thus shorting our check $200.

So, besides trying to get an exemption to get it back... I was a little upset we didn't find out until we got our check. They told me and showed me in underwriting they can change up to $250 without any notification to us. How slimy is that?

So, i'm just trying to get that money back. We did put down a refundable deposit we are supposed to get back soon... once we do, I think we're done with this company.



I have others to work with that are much better, and even an alternative that im currently trying to onboard with which I'm excited about. I'm kinda glad I had this hiccup early with this company -- it helped me learn the ropes of what to expect, what it means to be cheated, and how things should be done -- what I want and what I DONT want. So, lesson learned. (Also, it is a bit uncommon to have a lender require a deposit to ensure you send deals... that should have been my first red flag, but I'm learning.)

[P.S. if my message isn't making sense-- I should mention I'm a Finance and Insurance Manager at a small independent dealership for used cars my best friend started up. Big transition from my education career, but it's been ride so far!]