Psychomotor agitation and unrelenting negative thinking

I had hoped that adding Seroquel would help. And it did. I thought it had. It gave me a couple seconds more to think before I act, and gave me some brief episodes of serenity, to help me plan a brighter future.

However, I've been in this constant state of dysphoria (Dysthymia is another diagnosis).

I mean come on. Look at the state of the world. And put a recovering drug addict with antisocial traits and a long history of bipolar, in a competitive and toxic corporate building, with a girlfriend who drives me up the wall?

I could complain all day. The wind pisses me off.

Strangely, I'm pretty optimistic, a lot of the time. At least about myself, and my ability to overcome.

I have a new opportunity starting tomorrow. I want to seize it. I want to contribute, again, in a meaningful way, this time.

But another part of me, plagued with ever-growing psychomotor agitation and disenchantment with the state, has me in a very uncomfortable position. Housed with a female who, bless her heart, is so passionate that it makes my head spin. Spin too far, though, to be clear. Too much.

Damn. Whatever

Hey I hear you with the agitation when I experienced it I was so uncomfortable and really struggled. I talked to my psych about to and he came up with some medication suggestions. Still working to find the best combo for myself, which I know most of us struggle with. I love that you mentioned your ability to overcome, it's a strong trait and skill that's definitely something to focus on and be proud of. I wish you the best of luck with your new opportunity !! Congratulations (:

Thank you so much - it's going better than expected. I think they key is to not drink 3 cups of coffee a day.

May you pop off as well.

Sometimes we (I include myself) need to simplify our life. Am I doing things for myself that I know I am supposed to do?
The simplest things are often the most important. Hate those docs that just pile on the drugs as if they've never heard of exercise, getting out in nature, self care in general. Sure the right meds are important, but phew, first things first, dude.

A very important life skill to be able to trace back an emotion to an action or thought process