[Victoria'smom]

I have therapy 2x a week but between the pharmacy ****ing up and my pdoc ignoring the prior authorization request and their response I will not get my medicine until at least Wednesday. My husband went to the pharmacy today and got my dog one of the medicines that they stole but honestly it's just to make her comfortable until some point next week as she has stopped eating, drinking and refuses to go outside. We're using our Christmas money from my parents early to euthanize. She's my rock, she's my reality check and I won't have that soon. I'm already pretty deep in psychosis but my insight is still there. Yesterday I was so agitated I looked like I was withdrawing all fidgety and **** while being dissociate. H says no more dogs but it was rough when everyone was gone and Athena wasn't moving. I'll honor his wishes though. How do I get past loosing my reality check when in psychosis? I don't want to be hospitalized my h needs me.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I'm so sorry.

[Crazy Hitch]

This is so rough. Giving you hugs 🫂

[Victoria'smom]

She's in a lot of pain, refusing medicine but she ate and drank today. She refuses to go out. H doesn't want to put her down but if she's not taking the medicine by Wednesday he agreed. I would have put her down today but this has to be a family decision.

[Frog4Life]

Oh honey, I am so sorry. Putting a pet down is so heartbreaking. And the fact your baby helps you with your psychosis. My heart really goes out to you. May I ask what is the reasoning for not getting another dog? I am all for respecting your husband's opinion, but if having one is therapeutic. I can understand you being absolutely devastated. For some people a pet is just a pet and then there are those of us that see them as family. I still miss my baby and it has been over 3 years since I had to put him down. He was my comfort as well. There was an unspoken bond and he was one of the best. I am very sorry for your impending loss. Sending lots of hugs.

[Victoria'smom]

He never wants to go through this pain again.

[Frog4Life]

I felt that way with the first dog I cared a lot a about passed. My husband had several dogs after that. I just didn't get attached, they are his dogs anyway. My Do-bird-o snuck his way in. Hopefully, he will rethink it.