How do you do it?

My period makes me want to die. My meds make me want to die, but if I so much as suggest taking 750mg instead of 1000mg I get bytched at because my VA level isn't toxic. Who cares if my AST and ALT are high enough that I will definitely not live to see 50 at this rate? I CERTAINLY DON'T!!!! This heat makes me want to die; I wouldn't be surprised if it never snowed at this elevation in this region again because fk the planet and fk the climate and fk everything. I'm gonna go apply for my passport card and get a good sleeping bag and just head up to the nunavut border so hopefully I don't have to experience a feels like temp of 110 several times at least for 2025.

I can't get into my online bank account because I changed my phone number anad they want "authentication" because knowing my username and password isn't good enough, and their website won't let me email them and of course no one is answering the phones (on hold), and they made me go down for meds today and of course now my gas flap won't even open with a screw driver (latch is fked but I could wedge it open except not today)

I'm going to cancel therapy. Just straight up stop it. All it is at this point is making me feel stupid, but that's everything because I'm a fking dumbass and it's a wonder how I managed to stick around this long. Oh wait, it's becauase this world is stupid proof....

So, yeah, irritability. If I have to do another thing today involving other people, I'm getting arrested or detained or placed in protective custody. If I wake up this way tomorrow? I'm not leaving the house. Fk the meds. Let them send the police out. I don't give a flying fffff

edit: aaand I just put a hole in the wall...nice...

Why shouldn’t I go in full blown relapse mode? I’m practically acting the same by being completely fking incapable of doing anything, might as well NOT have homicidal thoughts while (not) doing this.

I don’t know what to do. I’m not calling up the team and telling them I want to be extremely violent towards them.

Fkkkkkkk lifeeeeeeeee

Fkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkmmmkkmntjfhebchrhrhebfueurbfhd someone hit me

They probably saw my yt history and said we canÂ’t have this chick studying cell structure and listening to fking heÂ’ll do theyÂ’re coming in my pills with chloroethylthyromethaldianitrolade so I can be a habitat for neutral species from Conley ****. If thatÂ’s whatÂ’s going on then you should just know that IÂ’m breeding leprechauns starting to cling morrow. This is some Old Man and the Sea shut. They want walnuts? IÂ’ll give them walnuts. Allergy mofosÂ….

Sing to me Dustin!!!! I AM READY FOR YOUR SOULLLLLL

Vomit time because there’s no emcee hammer today

Richard Parker and King Solomon should have a baby. They could name it Neptunes Little lizard Liza. But I know I’m not getting that money because STALKERSS!!!! Stocks in socks for locks in my fireplace if you want. Good thing because stumbling inn is a place for Tuckerman. And I’m done. If I touch another god forsake. Foreskin I’m leaving for Sherbrooke in the midnight.

Damn. How hot is it where you live? It's like 47F here.

I get pissed off before my period too. I'm a nasty person to be around before my period, but once I get it I feel better. I hope you get yours soon. 🙏

I'm sorry you're having such an unfortunate day.

Try throwing pillows and screaming. I used to throw pillows instead of books and other things to cause zero damage when I had the rage.

I hope things start getting better for you. My period puts me in a crappy mood too.

BTW: It's in the 80s here...! I feel like fall will NEVER come!

My cycle is fubar so I have PMS for like three weeks, then menstruate, then be "normal" for anywhere from a week to a couple years before it happens again... It's in the 40s now, but we're supposed to be in snow season and all I've seen heere is some flurries a couple weeks ago. It was like 80 on halloween and the joke is SUPPOSED TO BE that we make it so our halloween costumes fit over snow suits