[Victoria'smom]

Possible trigger:

I keep imagining breaking my bathroom mirror and using shards to hurt myself. I really really want to. I don't want my husband to know. He's busy anyway. Maybe I can break it quietly so he doesn't hear but I feel like flipping out and hurting myself. I refuse to go into the bathroom at this point. I don't have therapy until another week. I'm angry? Sad? I miss ana, I miss eating what I want. I don't want my injection, I'm in a **** meds mood. It's too early to take my night meds. I don't get it. My mood was getting low but I didn't expect to almost be in crisis.

any skills I can use without moving from safety.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm in bed for the night at 8:30. This is ridiculous.

[bizi]

V.Mom I hope you get a good nites sleep in.
Bizi

[Victoria'smom]

I slept well, hopefully today is better.

[Victoria'smom]

I've been calmer today. Still having urges but I'm starting to think I maybe going up in mood or mixed? I found out my clinic is only open Tuesday and Thursday. So I had to move my therapist appointment. So therapy was moved to Wednesday, and I get my injection Thursday.

[Victoria'smom]

Still all over the place, **** meds feeling, I think talking to t triggered me still dealing with

Possible trigger:

hypersexuality and self harm

thoughts. And just wanting to loose control. Dive deep into insanity and never come back. This feeling is ********. I can see it happening, I can imagine it, I can feel it, I miss it, but I don't know if I'd stop. I'm regrettably safe. Hopefully tomorrow is better.

[Victoria'smom]

Possible trigger:

I told h about the hypersexuality but not about the sh urges

he took it well. We will see how this goes. I told him why I collect jewelry and why I won't wear certain jewelry. He told me I'm morbid and dangerously dedicated and to please inform my therapist. I told him my therapist at the time knew after the fact but he wants her to know I won't tell the truth if I think it'll get me hospitalized. I think she knows that already. I guess I can tell her outright but it feels so weird telling her that when I'm not in crisis. I see t tomorrow then pdoc Thursday. So scared.