[purplebutterfly]

[RozG]

((((Purplebutterfly))))

i'm sorry you feel this bad, please know we do care.

did your pdoc get back to you, has she done anything about your meds yet...are you still taking them?

[Liberada]

[purplebutterfly]

No I stopped taking them i have missed two doses of one and a dose of the other. She is suppose to call me back this afternoon and she is probably going to put me back on Zyprexa (i took this drug like 6mos ago) at a higher dose than before when i was on it, i was only on 5mg a day and either change my prozac to a different drug or up the prozac as well. still not sure tho, she is going to talk to my t about the options i have. i am not able to work at all today, im sitting here at my desk just bawling my eyes out, im lonely, i feel depressed angry and like people are always leaving me cuz they don't to deal with me, i guess im too much to handle. So much has happened in the past that i haven't dealt with, i keep trying to ignore things but they always come back for me. I feel so out of control, and i need to be in control of something-and that is making the pain go away so hence the reason why i have scissors here sitting beside me just waiting for the opportunity to arise. sorry i hope i am not triggering anyone.

[RozG]

((((Purplebutterfly))))

i really don't know what to say except please hang in there and PLEASE don't use those scissors...you're worth more than that!