[conigogo]

I was diagnosed as bipolar (mixed) about 2 1/2 months ago, while hospitalized. Add that to the anxiety disorder and the recent PTSD. Anyway, the meds have been working pretty well (Welbutrin SR, Lithium, & Klonapin), & I take them faithfully. I also see my therapist every week & my psychiatrist every month for med consult. Anyway, I have been feeling a lot better, and then last Thursday, out of the blue, a depression descended on me that will not lift. I've been surfing the web all day, seeking out all kinds of morbid/gory/depressing sites, and have been slipping further down as each day passes. I called my Pdoc yesterday & was able to speak with him his morning about increasing the Welbutrin SR dosage--which he did. I already had an appointment with my therapist today, so I picked up the scrip then. Right away, my T became concerned with my demeanor, and I decided to be totally honest with her. She thinks I should go back in the hospital--that my stay the first time was too short (4 days). She called the hospital, but they have no beds available and will call be tomorrow morning. When I went to get my scrip filled at the post pharmacy (we are military), I went down to the emergency room and asked how it would work if I suddenly showed up there. The nurse told me active duty take priority, and that if there were no beds, they would do their best to find me a place somewhere else. So, here I sit, wondering if I will be going to the hospital or not. I desperately want to feel better. It hurts so much. Sorry this is such a long post.

[Moose72]

It's not long.

I hope the fact that it's been a bit since you posted means they got you a room.

[agony007]

((conigogo)) i hope they make a space available for you. keep us posted on how you are doing. i hope you feel better soon.

agony

[conigogo]

The hospital called at 11:00 a.m. and told me to arrive for intake @ 6 p.m. It is an hour and a half drive, so I need to get packing. I have mixed feelings about going now, because I feel pretty comfortable sitting here on the couch dozing and watching TV and eating M & Ms. I know I can't do this forever, though, and I need to get help. So, for now, I'm going to unzip my suitcase and get going. Thanks to those who responded.