[MSUKate]

I got a little out of control tonight. I nearly got in a fight (a physical fight)

My neighbor had people over who were parked in my parking space. I was so pissed when i saw this.

They said they were going to be only a minute, so i decided to temporaily park in another neighbor's spot and just move when they were done.

I got stuck in the snow. I was SOOO Pissed!
I started yelling and swearing. It was frustrating.

so some total stranger helps me get my car out. (he was soo nice)

So then I get my car back on the street and the woman tries to explain what's going on, and says that they will only be a few minutes. I explain where visitors are supposed to park, and tell her that i wasn't really mad at her, mainly getting stuck in the snow.

Over 30 minutes pass.

She comes out, and i tell her they need to move their cars *now* I was very very rude and angry with her, but i was losing my patience because all i wanted to do was get the f-k home! There was no where else to park, and I couldn't leave my car on the street or risk getting a ticket or getting it hit by traffic.

They finally came out and move their cars, and when we were both headed back towards the building she started *****ing at me again, i just kept saying i just wanted to go home. I wanted to f-ing smack her. Really wanted to just beat the **** out of her.

I of course didn't. I ended up putting away my groceries and i went for a walk to blow off steam. They were gone when i got home.

I've been so short with people lately, just snapping when i dont mean to. The foulest language is coming from me all the time. I almost hit my cat yesterday.

What's happening to me?

[prettyfkindown!!]

**** i know that feeling! for me its like i'm watching myself going.. "what are ya doing, stop it!" but can't seem to!
its ok with people who know me but to anyone else i must seem crazy!!
its ok, just as long as you can see it!