[romanjames2004]

I belive I am bipolar. 6 months ago I was diagnosed with General Anxiety, Major depression, and OCD. I have recentley discoverd that I am Bipolar and not just Depressed. Though I could not go on any medication becuse I was 17 and my mom said no. (she had to take depicote for somehting not psychological and it made her sick at first like it usually does. this made her stop taking it and she got sicker becase your supposed to wene yourself of of it.) I went to therapy and then when I was at school I saw a therapist there. Right before christmas, I left school due to finacial reasons and started staying back at home. No one will belive that i have these things wrong with me. They think I am making everything up when really I am not. the only three people who belive me are my therapist that I havn't been able to see, my therapist at school, and my Psyychiatrist.

My GP said that I could just be having a hard time (I don't really see him becasue my mom goes to him and I think hes really unprofesional), my mom said that I was bored and needed a job, my sister things im just the big brother with issues that she hates, my other sister thinks im just doing it for the attention (why would I?), and my aunts think I am just wanting to be diagnosed so I have somehting to talk about.

Everytime I try to "educate" them on each of the illnesses that I have they simply tell me they really don;t want to hear it becasuie they have too much stuff that they have to worry about.

I just figured forget it and I stopeed talking to extended family and I try to ignore my imediate family but when I don't talk to them about it they sarcasticley ask me "so hows your "depression" or your "OCD" stuff?" And When I say that I don't want to talk about it becasue I know they don't want to hear it, they get mad.

I am not doing anything for attention. They think that I am just this person who is lazy untill I want to have fun and party but really thats not the truth. I am not lazy at all. Ever since my dad left I have been acting like a stay at home dad. I get everyone ready (including Mom) in the morning and I have to do all the house work as well as cleaning.

My aunt the other day called to talk to me and my sister told her I was sleeping becasue when i am depressed I sleep alot, and she said "Your mother better get him some drugs so he can become a civilized functioning adult already." She meant drugs to keep me awake... not from being depressed because she doesnot belive I have depression.

I just get sooooooo angry when none belives me whnI do the things I do or act the way I do. they think I do everything foratttention. Its like,, I dont take a 1 hour shower for attention...I have a certain routine. I dont have fast coversations about random things for attention, I dont feel the need to alwasy sleep and feel lonely for attention.

They also are in denial that anything is wrong with me becasue they followcertain stereo typoes like bipoar is when people have outbursts or loud random arguments when really its so much more. or people who are depressed just cry alot. Yeah I have crying fits but not every day... maybe once a week.

Well soory I made you read htis but I am just venting becasue I have to see two of my aunts tom. and I really dont want to becasue I have not seen my one aunt since Jan. 1. for a reason lol... But thats another story.

thanks for reading...

Roman James

[Michah]

(((((((romanjames))))))))

I hear you babe. Loud and clear. Keep on keeping on. We are with you and what you experience is real. Forgive the masses for they do not understand.

[Crazynurse]

Ahhhh hon, I truly understand, I was hospitalized a month at diag....my ex said he didn't believe in people being BP and it was a copout for their actions. He was unforgiving and not willing to give me another chance and left me. My mom never came to see me while there and to this day will not acknowledge that I have a "problem". One of my sister's suggestion is to just "get out and walk" as a cure. My other sister thinks it's an excuse for her to try and boss me around and tell me what to do. I'm 56 yrs old and that will be the day!

You are not alone....there are so many wonderful people on this site who have been a comfort and support to me.

Peace of body and mind

[madisgram]

(((roman james))), i am so sorry you are not being "heard" by your family. i "hear" you and wish i could help you in some way. know that we here at pc care about you and how you are feeling. you are not alone. we support you. good mood, bad mood...doesn't matter. u rant all u want. i'll listen and i know others will too.