[brsmurk]

I just recently lost my apartment do to a reckless and very stupid plan.
I cant think clearly, i think so much i feel crazy...i cant sleep all i do is think, when i finally do fall asleep i wake up to the same thing. I feel like a prisoner in my own mind. My bipolar i can no longer ignore, i really dont know what i should do until i get on my meds and see a therapist..help please i feel like im spiraling down, i cant get control.

[Michah]

Hi sweetie, forget the mistake for now......move it out of your mind. Observe it without judgement......do not think of it with emotion. As with all things, it will change and evolve.....

Let......it.......go.......and.....breathe.....

Have you got a safety net?(family, friends, hospital, therapist, 24 hour crisis centre, tranquilisers?) It would be good if you have someone with you.......you sound scared and overwhelmed.

Remember, all moods with bipolar are cyclic, revolutionary. This too will end and be replaced with something new.......please do not do it on your own......your safety is your first priority.......everything else is unimportant.

Please take care.......and practise stillness in the mind even for a few seconds, every now and then.

[brsmurk]

stillness in mind...im going to try to master that...what does one think about while still....

[froggie2]

Originally Posted by brsmurk

stillness in mind...im going to try to master that...what does one think about while still....

Just hang IN there. They always SAY this too shall pass.......and it does. Be good to yourself. Do you have any relaxation tapes? Maybe some tapes, a bubble bath and good sleep or read a light book? Usually puts me to sleep till I can cope again.

[Michah]

Originally Posted by brsmurk

stillness in mind...im going to try to master that...what does one think about while still....

It is difficult.......especially when one is a little manic.........I think of the ocean.......the undulation and breaking of the waves........the waves in rhythmic, rolling cycles, the cycles represent the nature of what ails me and I breathe in tune with that so that I am one with a power much greater than I and I feel protected.........and still.

I cannot maintain it for long but it is enough to feel a moment of bliss......and thats all you need........the more you practice, the easier it gets......

It is a good idea to start when you are feeling a moment of less agitation and then build it from there.......

Nature works for me because it teaches me humility.......and puts all of what I am in perspective..........think of what works for you.

I hope you are safe........like Froggie said, this TOO shall pass......

[brsmurk]

Originally Posted by froggie2

Just hang IN there. They always SAY this too shall pass.......and it does. Be good to yourself. Do you have any relaxation tapes? Maybe some tapes, a bubble bath and good sleep or read a light book? Usually puts me to sleep till I can cope again.

Yeah i have some tapes of the rain....like the ocean for u mich...i too like nature, i guess the only time it would work when i feel the onset of my agitation, these coping skills are going to take me sometime to conquer but they def. sound like something i can do and like doing....you guys are very patient with the crazy questions i really appreciate it...