[bigbear68]

Hey, I havent posted in a long time. Things are getting to me tonight though. sometimes I go online praying, please let me find peace at least for a little bit in someone elses words. I have the weight of the world on me. My youngest son has a really rare form of T cell skin lymphoma..its mycosis fungoids, strain pigmented purpura. Only 20 people have had that in the world! Its a slow cancer. thank goodness. And he is reponding well to treatment...but it drives me nuts everyday. My oldest is a suspect in crime. I know he is innocent,but still its so upsetting. My daughter is always fighting with her boyfriend. They live together with their 8 mo.old baby. Its stressful. I am overweight, I hurt all the time. Having the gastric bypass in Jan. 2010. I have a lot of physical problems, I have to do it. Im stressed out bad. I didnt tell no one. Iused to cut,but stopped. Now I hurt myself another way. I have psoarisis on my head. I cant leave it alone. Pick and pick until sometimes I bleed. it stops me in mytracks. It hurts, I thrive on it. Damnit,just like the cutting. I feel bad.
im really sad, and stressed. I dont know what to do

[shezbut]

(((((bigbear68)))))



I know that my words can't erase the pain and stress you're feeling. Just know that you're in my thoughts. I hope that things improve in your world very soon. Take care!

Shez