Borderline PD symptoms description

that's me. Sadly. I have been this way since i grew into a woman. Now im trying to fix it. I just don't know if i can.

I am new to this site, I have been diagnosed with severe bipolar and anxiety/panic attacks. I how ever am looking for more info on BPD and where I can find it. Also anyone know how a doc decides if you do have a BPD?

The art of diagnosing is beyond my knowledge and experience as a peer supporter but I do know they look for the symptoms of bipolar disorder in the DSM5 and try to match symptoms.

These articles may be of interest.

Bipolar Disorder: Symptoms, Types & Treatments | Psych Central

Bipolar Disorder Symptoms, Types & Diagnosis | Psych Central | Psych Central

Causes of Bipolar Disorder | Psych Central

Bipolar Disorder Fact Sheet | Psych Central

Bipolar Disorder Treatment & Therapies | Psych Central | Psych Central

I was always told I had bi-polar2 / anxiety. Recently, a peri-natal psychiatrist said I sound much more BPD. After reading this it seems very clear. She said BPD had a bad rep in the past, tended to be difficult people and hard to work with, and that since I am like-able and seemingly agreeable etc, others might have not wanted to see me this way. I resonate most with not knowing who the heck I am much of the time, not having defined feeling or grasp on myself, (even at almost 40 yo), married/divorced, lots and lots of rage that started maybe in my late teens/20s. I thought it was due to my Ex H, when we divorced, I lived alone for the first time in my whole life. It was very painful experience I was scared and lonely. Apparently BPD people don't like to be alone due to not having a firm sense of self. I married a great guy who encouraged therapy, and from there I have been healing. its not been linear, I have set backs, and need meds. I am going to be a new mom soon, I am really excited but also really terrified. And nervous if my little one somehow inherits this. But from what I heard, it also comes from a child hood full of lots of changes and shifts and instability. I had very grandiose type parents, they had me young and while doing their best, I feel I had a lot of instability. My mother would like us to stay home with her, or she would need us to do things for her, answer the phone, go into store. she obv had anxiety issues, which are worse now. I don't want to end up like that.... anyway, just thank you for this it was very helpful. I hope others can find healing and peace and a feeling of who they are and calm. <3

This is me all the way, I change moods like the wind, I anger is like the wrath of God, I will tear you apart verbally and then later feel horrible about it and push people away, I hate being this way, Why cant I be loved unconditionally, I love other people that way, I am called psyco because I can go from crying to laughing in 5 minutes or be doing them at the same time, Sorry I am rambling on, I lost someone I loved again and am to stubborn or trustful to reach out to them, I was lied to and betrayed again

As I mentioned in my intro, I have a friend who displays behavior consistent with BPD and this site has been immensely helpful to me in understanding what he is going through.

I have it but I can't tolerate being alone

I'd get a second opinion. I'm a milder version of what is described above and was diagnosed BPD.

I have never received an official diagnosis of BPD, but I have most, if not all the traits.

What's the difference between BPD and Bipolar Disorder? I get that the two are similar, but there is a lack of literature besides this site on it. What if you have both? For me, the fact that I do all the above is enough; who cares what it's called? The Gmork by any other name is still the Nothing. I fail to see how getting a diagnosis would change anything as I don't have money for therapy (and it's unlikely I ever will), and I will never voluntarily take medication again. Ever. I'd rather suffer through and at least know that my suffering is REAL. Taking medication does not change the exigent, external circumstances of my life that affect me in everything from lack of career and education to being able to leave the country. All taking meds will do is give me a false sense of security while my life continues to tailspin.

All that remains is the jaded cynicism and bitterness of a life that was wasted. Therefore, there will ALWAYS be BPD in my life.

Hello, thanks for sharing.

I was diagnosed with BPD this summer. I didn't take it seriously and assumed that the doctor made a fast diagnosis for insurance purposes. Six months later, I was back in similar patterns after a breakup and realized that this diagnosis reflects a lot of my life. I am now ready to come to terms with my BPD and wanted a support group. Do you have any suggestions or advice on places and resources?

Thanks,

Hello @Tere, I don't know of a support group specifically for BPD (though they may exist) but there's NAMI groups all over (virtual right now because of Covid) that you can join for free. They are comprised of people with all kinds of mental illness and struggles but you will likely find some compassionate souls there. Hopefully someone reading this will have a better answer on a specific group for BPD. Welcome to My Support Forums. Kit

Wow why was I not diagnosed with this sooner?