Hey everyone,

Today is Day#9 of me being home from the hospital. For the most part, it has been good. But for the past few days, I have been having some disturbing dreams of going back to the hospital and freaking out with the whole staff. I've also been feeling a bit down the past few days, and having some thoughts of overdosing, although they are not major or anything to be concerned about...I hope.

Maybe this is my mind's way of telling me that there is still a part of me that still misses the hospital? Or maybe I'm just slipping up a bit? Either way, I felt like I had to get this out somehow. I could use some understanding, maybe even some hugs.

Has anybody been through this? Do you have any tips for turning the mood around? Thanks for reading.

[Christine001]

hi,
i do know how you feel it takes a while to adjust. hugs from me.

[BrokenNBeautiful]

I can relate to hospital dreams.

I am not sure what to tell you.

Sometimes I miss therapy, but I know I am in a better place now and don't need it as much.

And when I feel self-destructive I know I don't have to act on it.

Billi

Thank you for responding.

Today I feel a bit better, although I've been hallucinating (which is a big sign of stress for me). Just seeing shadow people and objects moving when they shouldn't be. Usually it goes away quickly, but it's still scary!

That's very true, billi, what you said about not having to react on self-destructive impulses. Sometimes it's hard to resist, but it's worth it. I guess it'll just take time for me to get used to being home.

[tryingtobeme]

((((((((((Melissa)))))))))))

I'm sorry you are having a hard time. When I was in the hospital and came out, it was a big change for me. I went from a wonderful job and supportive people to being in the hospial with noone that knew me to nothing to worry about but myself. Then when I came home, I knew I went back to a job that I love, needed to be there for my husband and be a good wife. These are times that are very hard and take time to get back to feeling better. I know it took me several months. It probably depends on the person so don't feel it will or will not take you that long. Keep talk to your T. See if you can see your T more than once a week if you need to, until you back into your life. This is a very stressful time and you need all the support you can get now, to get back into your life in a healthy way. PM if you need to talk more.