[ChaoticMind80]

Some of the things that I do that annoys me, my boyfriend, my bosses, co workers, friends & family..anyone else out there do these things?.....
**Check the redials and/or caller ID on the phone (when you come home to your significant other after being @ work or out all day/evening)

**So paranoid that you try & convince yourself that everything is okay, & it works for maybe 5 minutes, but then your mind starts thinking about off-the-wall stuff, stuff that you KNOW isnt even realistic, but it sounds good, so you start believing what your paranoid thoughts are feeding your mind. ex: One day I parked my car after being @ work, and my bf being home. It had snowed, so I automatically saw fresh tire tracks (yes, I look for those) and I figured that it couldnt be mine from 9 hours ago, as it had been snowing. So then I got out of the car, and looked for footprints in the snow, and I saw some. They were leading from the abandoned house I had parked next to (I live across the street from where I park on the street) but didnt see footprints in the snow crossing the street. So, I thought Ill bet someone was tryin to trick me into thinking the footprints were from THIS side of the street and nobody was @ my aptment, when in fact they were @ my aptment and they cant fool me, Im onto them & their footprints they are tryin to throw me off with. But in the end it turns out nobody was @ my aptment, and I have no reason to think that, but when my mind starts goin, its on a roll and its hard to make it stop.

**Checking the stove knobs, outlets & appliances to make sure there is no way they will catch fire while you are away.

**If someone says "I went (________) today, and I had fun" and you reply "Oh, sounds like fun, maybe Id like to (________) someday" and they say "Do you know what (_______) is?" okay wait ummm are you questioning my intelligence? I cant stand that!!!

**"If you tell someone "Im going to the store to buy (___)." and they question you and ask "Why are you goin to buy (___) for? Do you think we really need that?" ummm, are you saying Im making a bad decision? Do you think Im not good with my money, like I blow it on items I dont need?

**Telling me to calm down, relax, chill, stop stressing, stop being so paranoid

**Asking the same questions over and over and over again. "are you mad at me?" "are you okay?" "whats wrong?" "did I do something wrong?" "why are you so quiet?" "how come you arent talking to me?" "something on your mind?" "is there something you want to tell me or talk to me about?"
and there is never anything wrong, or on his mind, but Ill ask all those questions and maybe 20 minutes later to 30 minutes later, REPEAT! lol

**Dislike certain numbers, if you happen to come across the number you dislike, you try (if possible) to go up one or down one. For example, I hate the number 6. If I make a huge thermos of coffee, I cant put in 6 sugars, but 5 is an odd number so I dont like that either, so Ill do 7, I like 7 but damn 7 is way too many sugars to put in my thermos. hahaha, Sounds weird when I type that out. I went to get something to eat about 2 weeks ago, and my order number was #666 (yes, Im cringing just typing that out) and so I thought for sure that I was doomed for the day, like maybe Id end up in a car accident on my way to work. I thought it was my day to have something tragic happen. odd? I think so.

Okay enough of this madness. Im sure yall are like what in the world does this chick keep talking about all of this nonsense for....
Just wanna know if anyone out there does/says/experiences anything similar to what I do/say/experience.
Thanks for reading!!!!!

[tattoogirl33]

Well Holy Crap!! It's sooooo nice to know others do think like me!! Do you hold total conversations, that you want to have with someone inparticular, in your head only to question yourself as to if this conversation actually may have taken place? (wow, that one sounds sooooo over the top, but I tend to do this a lot!) And the paranoia thing, yep, that's me too!!

[ChaoticMind80]

There are times when I will think up a scenerio in my head. Like kinda preparing myself if it were to happen I could pretty much figure out the outcome beforehand. So, after I do that, Ill ask my boyfriend if it happened or was I dreaming (daydreaming). Ex: Ill think about my boyfriend waking me up telling me that the dog had an accident in the aptment, so I can prepare myself and know exactly how Ill clean it up (I know that sounds nuts) but after I think that shyt, I go and ask him "did Molly have an accident in the house? or was I just daydreaming again" he will say no that enver happened, mustve been dreaming again. U know, daydream or go off into a daze thinkin up scenerios. weird.

[Uprwestsdr]

What I hate the most is the fact that I'm always thinking about myself. I think the world revolves around me (it doesn't!) and that I know what you're thinking. Whenever I can get outside myself and focus on someone else for a change, life gets better.

[bpd2]

Originally Posted by ChaoticMind80

**Asking the same questions over and over and over again. "are you mad at me?" "are you okay?" "whats wrong?" "did I do something wrong?" "why are you so quiet?" "how come you arent talking to me?" "something on your mind?" "is there something you want to tell me or talk to me about?"
and there is never anything wrong, or on his mind, but Ill ask all those questions and maybe 20 minutes later to 30 minutes later, REPEAT! lol

**Dislike certain numbers, if you happen to come across the number you dislike, you try (if possible) to go up one or down one. For example, I hate the number 6. If I make a huge thermos of coffee, I cant put in 6 sugars, but 5 is an odd number so I dont like that either, so Ill do 7, I like 7 but damn 7 is way too many sugars to put in my thermos. hahaha, Sounds weird when I type that out. I went to get something to eat about 2 weeks ago, and my order number was #666 (yes, Im cringing just typing that out) and so I thought for sure that I was doomed for the day, like maybe Id end up in a car accident on my way to work. I thought it was my day to have something tragic happen. odd? I think so.

These two? ABSOLUTELY. Different numbers, though, but I'm not telling what they are, because someone might use them against me somehow!

[snapdragon928]

Husband is coming home late for some reason and hasn't called me, by the time he's home, Ive already figured he's dead and have planned what to do and have planned who to call, and the funeral is planned. That happens if I am gone and can't reach him at home too.
I also worry about my daughter a lot, about getting into an accident when coming to see me or going home, or dangers of her riding her bike at night in the city ect. I have four daughters and two sons, the others I don't worry as much about, but this is my own daughter, I have one son that is mine, the rest are my stepchildren. I do worry about them at times but not as much.
I don't like dates that have all the same number in them, such as this past 1-1-11 and 1-11-11. I worry something wrong will happen on those dates. And we won't even talk about 666.

[ChaoticMind80]

So, last night I stopped @ a gas station to get a drink so I could take one of my meds. Im in the car and Ive got the map light on, so I can open my drink, open my bottle of meds and take my meds. I see the lady inside picking up the phone as shes looking out the window. Was she doing all of that because of me? Probably not. But with my mind, and how I think...Yes, she was lol. I started to get paranoid, think irrationally and think "Ill bet shes calling the cops because Im sitting here for 5 minutes and taking my meds, Ill bet she thinks im an addict and Im taking something I shouldnt be taking" so I quickly took my meds and left, quick! as Im leaving, Im thinking the cops are right around the corner, just waiting for me to leave out so they can pull me over, constantly checking in my rearview mirror, for any sign on a cop on my tail. but nothing....ugh how that just exhausts me. Those thoughts, and my actions. bah!