i dont understand any of this

i just registered today, my real reason why i registered is because i have 11 different disorders, panic, anxiety, bpd, adjustment, and so many more that i dont remember. got memory problem too, lol. i feel so many things all at once and i cant slow anything down. im scared all the time, im worried about being alone, afraid to sleep alone, and i just dont know what to do. i have not been on any meds for atleast 4 months, and no therapy of any kind, no insurance to be seen, im overwhelmed and i dont know what to do. will someone please help me, steer me in a helpful direction, please. i cant keep this up for too much longer, i feel like i wanna cry and faint, or pass out, something is gonna happen and i dont know what to do. im really scared.

Yeah your in the right place. Have a number of problems my self. I am in no way qualified to offer advise but I know where your coming from. There are some resources on this site you can check out and there is a chat session I think once a week.

Welcome Mourning Angels--this is a good place to fight alone-ness--but maybe it is loneliness that is the problem? And that is what I mean PC is good for! We talk A LOT, although, not always in this forum.

There are a few places to go for support--check out the homepage for tabs. There are places to ask for immediate advise and support.

Also, I noted that you said you have no insurance, but do you live in the US? If so, county mental health has a sliding scale, as do many other private, or semi-private practices. By sliding scale, I mean they'll go way low in fees. Please look into that.
And keep posting!