[smileytown]

So, I have this idea to stop taking all my meds and join the army. Why?
1. there is this cute girl I saw that is in the army
2 my therapist told me I need to relearn the way I think and have a whole new mindset. What a great way to do that at boot camp
3. my dr. said there is no FDA approve meds to treat BPD so why am I taking them?
4. I will be exercising and that makes one happy right?
5. I want to leave everything and every one behind before they leave me.
6. If I am in the army people have to be my friend.
7. I think I can fool them into mot thinking am am crazy and pretend to be normal.
Still I think this is crazy but I have been set on this for a couple of weeks. Am I crazy.

[sugahorse1]

Honestly... those comments don't sound rational to me.
I'd print the post out and send it to your T - ask her for her comments.

1. there is this cute girl I saw that is in the army There are "cute" girls all over the world
2 my therapist told me I need to relearn the way I think and have a whole new mindset. What a great way to do that at boot camp Boot camp is not a joy ride. You will be surrounded by people you don't like, but have to be a team. You will be physically and mentally pushed to the limits as it is. The Army indoctrinates you into their thinking. It is a mindset that works for the army, but not necessarily normal life.
3. my dr. said there is no FDA approve meds to treat BPD so why am I taking them? Meds for BPD are taken to treat any symptoms that pop up
4. I will be exercising and that makes one happy right? Yes, there will be more than enough exercise - but exercise alone will not make you happy. And this kind of exercise is such that you will be exerted to the ends of your capabilities
5. I want to leave everything and every one behind before they leave me. You do need a support structure in your life. Why do you think everyone will leave you?
6. If I am in the army people have to be my friend. People are not really friends in the army - they are forced to live together, and get on - often for the sake of your survival. You aren't really friends - you are comrades, sticking together to survive.
7. I think I can fool them into mot thinking am am crazy and pretend to be normal. Why would you want to fool anyone?

I don't think this is a very clever idea at all. Your motives seem irrational at this moment.

[yagalada]

I think that you're looking for something to be a part of, I'm always looking for that too. I don't think the army is a good idea, it could cause more problems for you than solutions. I think the stress of boot camp could effect you very negatively.

[smileytown]

I know it does sound irrational. I told my treatment team my whole plan, and they just say think about it. I am so desprate to be better, and I feel as though I would need a new brain to do so. I would do anything not to feel so all-over-the-place.

[bpd2]

Welllllllllllll, everything above is true, but I get it. AND, borderlines do well in very structured environments, especially where "the mission" is more important than relationships.....but would it be a good thing for your soul?, as in, would you grow any, deal with anything, learn how to manage your disorder? No.....you'd just be getting someone else to do it for you. Then what????? Yikes! Better to deal with the condition, then make a "career" move. In the meantime--what about college and a lot of PE classes!
Re the meds, there's no real cure for migraines either, but it sure feels good when the pain stops--regardless of who "approves" the drugs. I know I am better on meds--less depressed, less often extremely irritable....but those things still happen, and I haven't learned good social skills yet: I am too easily hurt by criticism and anger...what would make it easy to take criticism in the army is that it would be about following orders, learning skills--pretty basic stuff....like, uh, when you're a kid. No wonder it sounds attractive!