[Lil Ant Lady]

i started seeing this guy three months ago,,, hes sweet and lovely and caring. he came every day to see me in the hospital (i been hospitalised for half of the time we have been seeing each other - god knows what he wants to know a nut job like me for) and i really like him. at first i felt like we were slow going. fast sexually, slow emotionally. it felt hard to communicate with him. i wanted to communicate with him and tried but got little reciprocation. now hes kinda coming in for the kill... telling me all the time he likes me loads and being very vocal about the fact he finds me very attractive and beautiful and blah blah blah. no i love yous or nothing. hes still highly sexed and very experienced sexually. i find this very intimidating. like i cant please him enough. and that his demands are more than what im comfortable giving back. at first i was willing to try anything. but now the novelty has worn off for me but he just wants more and more and more. i just want less and its starting to irritate me now. im finding him rather smothering. whereas a relationship at this stage is supposed to progress i feel im retracting out of it and im getting very anxious about whats happening. this happens to me with every relationship i get into tho. how do i get past this barrier???? its not his fault... its mine! i really do need to tell him though. if hes into me in any kind of way he'll cool his sexual urges and be patient. he'll have to wank a little more often wont he lol :P on a serious note thought this is really upsetting me. i dont want to let him down

i seem to be right into sex at the beginning. then i cant be bothered. its like its not sustainable for me after so long and i dont know why?!!!?

i dont want to be single forever but the aggro in trying to get over niggling things in my head men seems to make my illness worse - so i feel like its better to leave it well alone. but then lonliness also plays a part in making my illness worse. so i cant bloody win. maybe i just need a companion. gosh i sound like a 98 year old lady putting out an add in a lonely hearts column not a 28 yr old woman who's supposed to be in her prime. oh my days.....

[my3sns]

(((((laura)))))

[Ballooninthewind]

I just got out of a whopping 3 month long relationship and I actually wanted to go back and change the answer in my sanity quiz that had something to do with others listening in or something. (jk). Just because your description was 99.999999 percent just like the past 2 relationships I had.

Not much advice as i'm definitely not one to give it but at least don't feel alone lol.

[Lil Ant Lady]

the most insane part of this is just after i posted this yesterday i got a message from him asking me if he can start officially telling people that im now his girlfriend and i just wanted to cry

thats not a natural reaction is it????