[fallingdownblue]

Sometimes when I'm having a bad day, or month as it seems to be right now, I do things that I know are bad for me, or that I know will make things worse for me. It's nothing major or dangerous or anything - but just stupid little self-destructive things that I know will make things difficult for myself. I know there's a lot more to BPD than that, and I've been having a lot of other issues as well, I'm just trying to figure out where I belong.

[Flooded]

Hell yes. Nearly everyday

[palemoss]

yeah. i can be like that with money. or after a break up in order to "avoid"

[Tourniquet]

Yeah I get that like a lot, I self sabotage all the time as if deep down I think I don't deserve anything good so I try to destroy it. For example, I've lost heaps of weight recently and as soon as I began feeling really good and healthy, I suddenly went the other way and began eating lots of junk and not exercising. I'm very self destructive, so I get what you mean.

[wantstobe]

Originally Posted by Tourniquet

Yeah I get that like a lot, I self sabotage all the time as if deep down I think I don't deserve anything good so I try to destroy it. For example, I've lost heaps of weight recently and as soon as I began feeling really good and healthy, I suddenly went the other way and began eating lots of junk and not exercising. I'm very self destructive, so I get what you mean.

Im the same way. I will do very good for awhile, but somehow I always do something self-destructive. I hate it. Its a cycle, like I will be feeling all good and everything, then I go and do something stupid, then the guilt, then the effort it takes to avoid the guilt, then I try again. I hate it. Does anyone know what kind of treatment they give for this? I mean, I have seen therapists for depression/anxiety, but I have never addressed BPD. I never believed it. I thought that was just the way I am. The more I have read about it though, it makes sense the doctor diagnosed me with it in 1990. It has taken me this long to really look into it and try to find help. I am already on meds for depression and I really do not want to take anything else. I just want to be normal!!

[Direction]

Originally Posted by wantstobe

Does anyone know what kind of treatment they give for this? I mean, I have seen therapists for depression/anxiety, but I have never addressed BPD.

DBT or dialectical behavior therapy is really one of the best types available. I attended a STEPPS group program...stands for Systems Training for Emotional Predictabiltiy & Problem solving which is a cognitive-behavioral, skills training approach which was very helpful...learned about filters and distortions and really gave me a foundation.

If you want more information post or pm me...

[free_me_now]

I've been in a major self-sabotaging and self-destructing place for many months now. I may do okay for a day or even a week and then bam! before I know it I'm doing something stupid that makes me feel like I'm drowning in quicksand. A lot of times I'm totally aware that I'm doing it but I can't seem to do anything else. I believe I deserve it. It makes me hate myself even more when I see it/do it. I know that no meds can fix this. The only thing I think could possibly help would be some sort of therapy. I've heard DBT is very successful but my therapist isn't into it. She likes CBT. I guess I'll give CBT a try and if that doesn't seem to help I'll look for another therapist (oh, yay!) who does do DBT.

[nicoleb2]

I am majorly that way with spending! I go shopping thinking it will help my mood, and then feel worse because I spent too much money

[Trippin2.0]

I pushed and pushed and pushed my bf. Now he needs 'space' my own fault,but i couldn't stop,really.

I have done that before. I make things worse when I am in a bad mood too.