Does anyone else seem to have great difficulty sustaining employment?

Due to both BPD and major depression I seem to have an extremely hard time sustaining employment. I get through the interview process just fine. Dressed nice, confident, good eye contact etc. I know what questions to ask and what not to ask. I know how to cleverly word my resume and leave out certain jobs so it doesn't seem like the swiss cheesed mess that it is.

And the first month is usually quite nice. But then my BPD sets in and I try to control it. I do. But the symptoms creep into my personality and I start to get really unfocused and hateful. I've had so many, many jobs. I'm so tired of this.

[Lil Ant Lady]

i havent had a problem with sustaining employment but here in the UK I think employers are a bit relaxed about mental health and time off through it in terms of sickness as long as you are open about it.

the last job I had I was there for 9 years and this current job I have been here for 2 and a half years. i only began having time off through depression (thats what they believe it is) just this year and so far ive had 3 and a half months off sick. luckily my employers are really understanding and allowed me to come back at my own pace that was suitable to me.

regarding the bpd ... mine doesnt really show at work. i can contain it massively. dont get me wrong I do have my days but I can usually surpress my emotions at work and let most things go.

I was getting to a point between Jan and Apr though where I wasnt functioning well at all. Id go out on massive benders and get drunk and then roll into work hungover and id spend most of the day in the toilets sleeping.

Im so glad I have got out of that ugly cycle now though and I make sure I get ample sleep the night before and I only drink at weekends, socially now.

Originally Posted by laura youens

i havent had a problem with sustaining employment but here in the UK I think employers are a bit relaxed about mental health and time off through it in terms of sickness as long as you are open about it.

the last job I had I was there for 9 years and this current job I have been here for 2 and a half years. i only began having time off through depression (thats what they believe it is) just this year and so far ive had 3 and a half months off sick. luckily my employers are really understanding and allowed me to come back at my own pace that was suitable to me.

regarding the bpd ... mine doesnt really show at work. i can contain it massively. dont get me wrong I do have my days but I can usually surpress my emotions at work and let most things go.

I was getting to a point between Jan and Apr though where I wasnt functioning well at all. Id go out on massive benders and get drunk and then roll into work hungover and id spend most of the day in the toilets sleeping.

Im so glad I have got out of that ugly cycle now though and I make sure I get ample sleep the night before and I only drink at weekends, socially now.

It sounds like you work for really nice people and your employment record sounds fairly stable. Glad to hear your out of your bad cycle.

[Flooded]

I'm definitely NOT employee material.

Starts off ok, but goes to **** soon after.

Originally Posted by Flooded

I'm definitely NOT employee material.

Starts off ok, but goes to **** soon after.

The last job I had the cops were called...

HOWEVER, that really wasn't my fault. I wasn't even there when it happened. But it happened because of me...

(Long story.)

[Cnytroxy1973]

Same here... doctoring up the resume just enough to make it believable. Get really excited and am very focused for about 2 weeks to a month.... Then bam! it all goes down the tubes! In comes self doubt, rumination, calling in sick cause I don't want to deal w/ a co-worked who I think is mad at me cause she seems to avoid me. All in my head..

I have lost 3 jobs in the past year due to BPD and DDNOS symptoms. I have a job interview tomorrow, but I've been extremely depressed lately and I'm starting to think that I might just not go.

Originally Posted by Aanga

I have lost 3 jobs in the past year due to BPD and DDNOS symptoms. I have a job interview tomorrow, but I've been extremely depressed lately and I'm starting to think that I might just not go.

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad Aanga.