after I love you', it's hard to go back

....it's taken years...what I know of borderline people is passion and integrity despite all the fumbling and tears...
thats me....

i meant it when I told her....but after that ...well she was free to wander the world....she had my unconditional un-lied about love to rely on....

I was not going to budge...it's not my style.....

but the damage it did to me...

a one sided relationship is like emotional murder.....it's like the love shop and everything is on special!
but who stocks up?

it's been going on way too long for me.....

sometimes...some people just will not be appropriate for us!

but after the ..."I love you".....the hanging on can kill and define me...

but it's always 'the hanging on'

no validation...

and the brutal reaction is such a shock!

and crawling out of that hole is like shards of heart scraps dragging over my mind....

how to release?

to be free

this is just one account of bpd...quite a serious one ...

nevertheless there are many...at least a good few I would rather keep to myself for now..

a predisposition...a sensitivity to abandonment, rejection and invalidation....

perhaps?

but other situations max it right out