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You know, theres a lot going on this time of year... And even more in my brain. Im taking my meds right, and im functional at all moments. But, I cant help but think, and almost know, that I am about worthless. Yes I take care of my kid, and am a crazy cleaner (perfection is a problem). But, my bf walks to work (we dont have the money to fix our car) in the freezing cold, while im at home all the time. Id like to work, but when we talk about it, its not really an option for right now. so theres where tge lack of self worth comes into play. Im not doing enough, and I have so many health issues that keep showing up...
![]() Also, everytime I fight with him, he says I blame my mental illnresses too much. But, im just trying to make the point that I cant get over them without his support. He never gives it, because he doesnt get it. He thinks, shes yelling, I will too. How do I get him to realize it doesnt help?? How do I change BY MYSELF? I want to get better, I want self esteem, and I want to accept, just dont think I can alone... |
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I'm sorry to read that you're in such a difficult spot. You don't sound dumb! You do sound frustrated, which is ok! It's GREAT that you're going in for a med check!!
Having his support is important, but make sure you getting better isn't dependent on his support. You have to do it for yourself. Also, when you yell at someone the natural reaction is going to be to yell back. Having bpd or any other mental illness is not a free pass to yell and get away with it.. Hang in there! |
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no way nothing about all that is anything close to dumb...quite the opposite! ![]() |
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