[BorderlineBrittany]

So its been about 2 weeks.. I take them about every 4 days for a day or two just so I don't get this weird out of body experience, and electric impluses...
Don't ask me why... I usually say I forget.. But honestly Im starting to think its a choice.. Im choosing not to.. Im not sure why..
Im miserable.. I look like ****.. I hate my job.. Im getting no sleep.. All I want to do is sleep... IL havent showered in two days.. Im slacking at work.. I would like them to fire me now.. (its a temp job so its suppose to end soon, just not being told when and i want it now)
I know im happier when i take my meds.. I know its best for everyone.. But maybe im happier miserable? I have no idea.. I dont know why im writing.. i dont know if i want advice.. and people to tell me to take my meds..... Or do i????

Originally Posted by BorderlineBrittany

I dont know why im writing.. i dont know if i want advice.. and people to tell me to take my meds..... Or do i????

I don't know that I have any advice or anything but just a perspective on your statement here. The last question "or do i?" That, for me, is key. I tend to rely on what other people say or dont' say do guide my life. I have a hard time doing anything without their input and that's a huge part of the problem so... Maybe you do want someone to say that.

[amaviena]

I stopped taking my meds for 6 months. When I started taking them again in January, I felt so much better. My symptoms are so much less and I'm able to function. I'm on disability though so I don't have to work and I have a chance to enjoy things and have bad days if I want. If you do things they have to be for YOU or it doesn't matter. In the end, you have only you to make happy. If your meds have too many side effects, get new meds.