does this sound familiar?

So I took the test and it mentioned BPD so i just want to know if this sounds like a familiar scenario for a person with bpd?

So when i was 10 my mom abandoned me and my dad took me under his wing but he had brain surgery and was not really there he was having his own problems. Im not sure if this has anything to do with my problem now im just guessing.

Well im extremely afraid of my mom and dad abandoning me. I live with my dad and we live good together except for some times when he did something to show me he was disappointed i went into hysteria and broke my hand (this was two days ago). Same thing goes for my mom (I tore up all our pictures together and wrote F u all over her walls.)

I couldnt control myself, I was a different person and could not stop I am worried i will hurt somebody because i get a huge amount of strength when i go into this craziness and i cant control myself.

I did try to move away a year ago and basically i couldnt handle being alone at all. I had to call somebody every 5 hours or so maybe more. I got extremely mad when one of my friends would not call me back and I couldnt go to the store because i thought everybody was watching me and i couldnt make a good decision on food I would end up buying cupcakes, glue, chapstick, and a soda when i should have been buying dinner which is why i went in there.

If one of my parents wouldnt call me back i would go into a panic of hate. I thought they were being mean to me on purpose.
I hate my sisters because i think they try to mess me up and they interfere with my living conditions which gets me mad.

What the heck is up with me? I dont want to be this way!

(((Esman))) i know everyone has FELT like tearing things up and writing F**** all over the walls or doing something similar, but most are able to control the impulses. So something happens to some of us where we have poor impulse control and rage takes over.
Basically, im just another suffering human being not a pdoc or T, but it sound to be, bottom line like the root of your problem is you are confused and in unimaginable pain. No person can handle that alone. Do you have a pdoc or T that can help? If not, i recommend you get one asap. Hugs if that's ok.

Hi! thanks for your help! so i have been to a therapist and i wasnt able to stay long enough to really get any real help. The biggest thing i was worried about was that I couldnt control my rage, i wasnt really aware of what i was doing or why. it wasnt calculated. I really was out of control. this has occurred before.

After it happens i have no clue why the heck i just did that. I also get overwhelming thoughts of suicide triggered by idiotic frustration over nothing.

To me I dont believe i have any illness but i am worried about the rage thing because once i cross that line, theres no going back (for about a day) . this worries me (and my dad) I mean i look like the girl from the exorcist, its scary! and i hate it.

to me the symptoms sound familiar but i just dont believe i have that big of a problem except for the rage thing.

anyways believe it or not where i moved to doesnt have enough drs to help everybody so nobody can fit me into their schedule. so im sorta SOL .

in the mean time i think i will look up anger management