[rainbowdust1]

I have such a hard time controlling my anger. I get crazy levels of upset over what seem to be the smallest things. Some days I wake up mad. I constantly dwell on the past. I dwell on past hurts, then I get mad at whoever hurt me all over again. It really affects my relationships. I have a hard time moving on from things. If I do something wrong or hurt someone I think about it constantly. I worry about everything all the time. My girlfriend thinks I don't listen to her, and I do. I always have a million things running through my head. I can watch a movie and not be able to tell you what it was about. It's hard just to "be" sometimes.

[AngelWolf3]

Omigosh are you inside my head, because I am the same way. I hear you. Oh man. Many hugs and good thoughts for you. I know what you are going through.

[rainbowdust1]

Good thoughts to you too! It's just so hard to manage myself, let alone manage effective and healthy relationships. This is probably going to sound really weird but, sometimes I feel like I'm not real. I mean I know I am. I don't know how to explain it. I feel really observant of my actions. Like I notice when I move a finger. Sometimes I feel like I am not worthy to be loved and that my partner is only with me because she feels sorry for me. I have asked her and she has assured me different. I still have a hard time believing her and we have been together almost 8 years.

Originally Posted by Wolfin3

Omigosh are you inside my head, because I am the same way. I hear you. Oh man. Many hugs and good thoughts for you. I know what you are going through.