[Sazi22]

I am relatively newly diagnosed and was hospitalized in March for a breakdown. Once my meds were changed, I felt 100 times better. Now the self hatred and disgust with myself is coming back. I think it has to do with my finances taking a hit because of recent overspending and eBay addiction.

Does anyone else deal with this? How do you cope?

Thanks.

[SwayintheBreeze]

I do spending sprees then feel horrible about myself and go through alot of chatter to myself which usually leaves me feeling worse. I haven't found a good method for dealing with it other than to let it run its course and allow myself the time to feel better in a few days (weeks). I have recently gotten into meditation and deep breathing exercises to help center myself which I find are helping .. when I feel like doing them

[kitten2012]

Yeah, I make a good income but spend myself into poverty. Seems like you only have to spend a ton every so often and spend the rest of the time trying to catch up. I'm in the same boat.

[shezbut]

Yeah, I fight over-spending pretty frequently as well.

I kick myself hard and am tempted to do worse in those times. I hate it!! Especially as I am fighting to pay necessary bills through SSI income ~ I can't explain what in the world possesses me to think that I can actually afford to spend money on clothes, hair products, eBay stuff...what am I??! It always brings my self-esteem down further, yet I keep finding myself doing it again ~ month after month.

I hope that you can find a way out of this mess. Hugs to you!