[Altinak]

Okay so yesterday I went to the psychiatrist, and left feeling super let down.
Im from the UK and any answers would be helpful.

I told them about the constant suicidal ideation, threats, and thoughts of self harm. I have a long history of coping through self-destructive behaviour and told them I felt like I was fighting myself and felt 'stuck'.
Also consumed by the mood I'm in.
A bunch of other things too like not eating to punish myself and using alcohol to cope.

All they did was drop me and suggest to get help with the alcohol (its not that big a problem and I felt challenged) and to contact a counselling service myself, basically pawning me off.

However, the also said I have traits of BPD, so when I went home I talked it through with an online friend who has a psychological background..

Im really not sure who I am or if I have this, it would give somewhat a relief and give me the upper hand against the 'bad' me.

I dont know guys.. I just came accross this sight and guess was hoping for some reassurance or some kind of advice?

The suicidal thoughts come and go but when they are here they are intense..

Who knows.

Thank you

Was this your CMHT? if so it doesn't suprise me - most are pretty useless...mine only has a 66% positive feedback rating. I would ask to be referred to your local personality disorder service to get diagnosed. The assessment takes about 10 weeks and from there you join a DBT programme (if you wish and of course, if they think you're right for it) which lasts about a year. These are very hard to get onto though (took me about a year to convince my psychiatrist that this is what i needed) and it can take several months from the assessment to get onto the programme. There isn't any medication for the disorder although there are meds to help with the more obvious symptoms etc. Why would you have to find a counselling service yourself? If its a CMHT you're under they should at least be more helpful than this and find one for you. Hope ive shed some light. All the best.

[Altinak]

Originally Posted by bb2023

Was this your CMHT?.

This was at a hospital, a psychologist and he spoke to his boss who is a psychiatrist.
I have to start the help process all over again, at this moment and time Ive been dropped and basically told to start from the start again.

I don't feel like Im going to get anywhere..

Originally Posted by Altinak

This was at a hospital, a psychologist and he spoke to his boss who is a psychiatrist.
I have to start the help process all over again, at this moment and time Ive been dropped and basically told to start from the start again.

I don't feel like Im going to get anywhere..

Yeah i know how tough it is as soon as you get back under a CMHT be very clear and persistant about what you want - as soon as they see you mean business and won't back down they will do the right thing. I wish we didn't have to fight so hard but hey...great being in the uk ain't it? lol

[Altinak]

Originally Posted by bb2023

Yeah i know how tough it is as soon as you get back under a CMHT be very clear and persistant about what you want - as soon as they see you mean business and won't back down they will do the right thing. I wish we didn't have to fight so hard but hey...great being in the uk ain't it? lol

Yeah it's fantastic.. hahaha.
I have another GP (useless) appointment next week, I just don't know if I have the fight in me for much longer. I guess I'll just try.
Thank you for being so lovely

[BrokenNBeautiful]

I wish you the best, Altinak.

Even if you don't get it.

Keep talking to us.

Somebody does care.

Carol (fellow person with bpd)