I have been in and out crisis so much lately and it is driving me mad.

I am under my crisis team and they are so useless, They came to see me today and asked if I am still having suicidal thoughts in which I said yes, He just wrote it down and left, It is like they don't care.

Also my therapist wants to bring our sessions to a close, It is like no one gives a crap I am just being left to deal with these thoughts even though I was promised the help.

Crisis team are coming out again on Tuesday and I am not going to let them in, I don't see any reason why I should they are no use to me, They asked if I have started my christmas shopping yet? I told them I got some stuff on Friday but the crowds were too much for me so I went online and shopped from there, They said well that is not good, How am I supposed to get out when I feel like this? I do try but when I go out I feel so horrible in myself.

(((Tinkerbell))) ...

Sad the crisis team seems so indifferent ... But, beyond that .... Why does your therapist want to quit seeing you? ... And, is there a back up therapist they are referring to? ...

ps. I care, by the way ... !!!

,
Pfrog!

Hi pfrog,

I always knew it was short term therapy, I had just started to trust her though which I find it hard to trust anyone, My Pdoc wants me to try DBT.

(((Tinkerbell))) ... It's sad to get juggled and jumbled around like this ... I guess the only people who have long term therapeutic relationships are those who've got more money than god ...

[msjanalyn]

Sometimes things really suck and people are jerks. It hurts so bad when you think that people don't care and aren't taking you seriously. You have to be your own advocate - and find/get/insist on the things that you need. I can imagine the rejection you feel because your therapist wants to bring your sessions to a close. But, someone better will come along - things always have a way of working out. I know this is trite, but, "it's always darkest before the light".

I did a DBT group for a while - I had to quit because of my insurance. It was good - although everyone in my group was borderline - I was the only one crying at every group. Yes, others would shed a tear or two but nothing like the spectacle I made of myself.

Now I practice my DBT skills with my therapist. It's helped me so much - sometimes I get pissed because the right way to think about a certain situation is to think the complete opposite. lol.

I catch myself a lot and I have to repeat to myself that I don't need to think this way anymore - it worked for me when I was young but only because I needed it and it was a defense mechanism. Not sure if that applies to everyone but it helps me calm down a little - and momentarily get out of the strong emotions. If you haven't looked into DBT you can find a lot of resources on the internet - it's been so helpful to me.

Hang in there - it's going to be ok.

Tink,

I understand. I feel that way often enough: no one cares. I definitely empathize with your feelings. I hope you can find some relief and support soon. Every single person wants compassion and validation. Everyone deserves it...You do too.
This is all I can offer. Your feelings are valid and understood by me.

[shezbut]

Please do try DBT, Tinkerbell!

DBT has helped me in a lot of ways. I really do think that it would be very helpful to you. Please give your pDoc's recommendation serious thought. It isn't an automatic relief, but there are a lot of positives! I'm still working on my issues in DBT, but there are a lot of helpful tips that help get me through the moment.

You can check out the attached link to gain an understanding of what DBT's principals are...and what you can expect.

http://www.dbtselfhelp.com

[waggiedog]

Originally Posted by Tinkerbell..

I have been in and out crisis so much lately and it is driving me mad.

I am under my crisis team and they are so useless, They came to see me today and asked if I am still having suicidal thoughts in which I said yes, He just wrote it down and left, It is like they don't care.

Also my therapist wants to bring our sessions to a close, It is like no one gives a crap I am just being left to deal with these thoughts even though I was promised the help.

Crisis team are coming out again on Tuesday and I am not going to let them in, I don't see any reason why I should they are no use to me, They asked if I have started my christmas shopping yet? I told them I got some stuff on Friday but the crowds were too much for me so I went online and shopped from there, They said well that is not good, How am I supposed to get out when I feel like this? I do try but when I go out I feel so horrible in myself.

Hi hunny. Oh how angry this makes (yes it prob is borderline anger) me feel. I get exactly the same from nearly everyone in the medical world and I thought it was only the UK which is bad. Quite honestly crises lines are prob of a lot of help to some folk but I don't find this so. Even the psych Dr's don't like borderliners, they openly say this to me. I also have in the past a crises team who visit my home. While they are very good it's a shock when they stop visits and pass me over to a CPN (community psych nurse). Sadly whilst my CPN is very nice, she's just no help, talking about everything but my suicidal thoughts - and sometimes actions. You certainly are not alone on this front for sure. I don't know what to say really as I've had BPD for 30 years and not found any answers. Somehow I'm left to my own devices and this mostly end up by me being hospitalised. They know exactly where it ends and so do I, yet still no constructive help. I CARE, I REALLY DO and I understand hunny. 'normal' people do not understand. XXX

[BrokenNBeautiful]

Originally Posted by Tinkerbell..

I have been in and out crisis so much lately and it is driving me mad.

I am under my crisis team and they are so useless, They came to see me today and asked if I am still having suicidal thoughts in which I said yes, He just wrote it down and left, It is like they don't care.

Also my therapist wants to bring our sessions to a close, It is like no one gives a crap I am just being left to deal with these thoughts even though I was promised the help.

Crisis team are coming out again on Tuesday and I am not going to let them in, I don't see any reason why I should they are no use to me, They asked if I have started my christmas shopping yet? I told them I got some stuff on Friday but the crowds were too much for me so I went online and shopped from there, They said well that is not good, How am I supposed to get out when I feel like this? I do try but when I go out I feel so horrible in myself.

So sorry about your therapist, that crisis team, and also it sounds like they were not very supportive about your "getting out". It's so hard, esp in December---I hate christmas shopping. I s hop online too. I am learning, with my mentor's help not to be so messed up, but it's really a self-paced, individual process.

Carol

[roads]

Tinks, I'm so sorry that this is all crashing down again. You've been here before so many times, and I don't understand why that system is so dense. Tea and shopping has never given anyone I know of reason for living.

I think not admitting the crisis team may only cause you added grief, but it's up to you. The DBT that people are recommending sounds worth checking out. You need relief. It's so maddening that we who care about you so much have no means of helping--but those professionals with the means seem so uncaring.

Hugs and love from me and all us here.
Roadie

Thank you.

I asked the crisis team to discharge me today so I will get to see my T on Friday, The crisis team asked if I find them helpful in which I replied "NO" I am sure they think I sit here all day doing nothing Lol.

Anyway I did get a call about a CPN in which they wanted to visit me today but I had to go out so they are going to call me tomorrow to arrange another appointment.

Originally Posted by shezbut

Please do try DBT, Tinkerbell!

DBT has helped me in a lot of ways. I really do think that it would be very helpful to you. Please give your pDoc's recommendation serious thought. It isn't an automatic relief, but there are a lot of positives! I'm still working on my issues in DBT, but there are a lot of helpful tips that help get me through the moment.

You can check out the attached link to gain an understanding of what DBT's principals are...and what you can expect.

http://www.dbtselfhelp.com

Thanks for the link Shez, I will certainly give this a read.
I have been hearing so many good things about DBT I just hope my Pdoc keeps to his word.I am glad that you have found it helpful

[roads]

Originally Posted by Tinkerbell..

Thank you.

I asked the crisis team to discharge me today so I will get to see my T on Friday, The crisis team asked if I find them helpful in which I replied "NO" I am sure they think I sit here all day doing nothing Lol.

Anyway I did get a call about a CPN in which they wanted to visit me today but I had to go out so they are going to call me tomorrow to arrange another appointment.

I'm glad you are a strong lady and were honest in saying, "no!" Also glad they're terminating you to the CPN, who will be no more helpful from what I hear but less of a useless nuisance . I hope this means you get access to your T back pretty much immediately.

I wish you could come over for a visit. A complete break might re-set brain cells. How is mother-in-law? I'm hoping her support of you continues. That must seem like very welcomed fresh air!!

Roadie

Thanks Roadie.

My mother in-law has been fantastic, Not heard today about the CPN though they were meant to call me back.

Yeah I will jump on that plane and come visit if you like could do with a break

[BrokenNBeautiful]

good on you, telling that crisis team what you thought!

These ppl need our feedback.

Carol