I am feeling very very excluded from everywhere right now I am really not sure if this is BPD? I don't know I kind of want to pack it all in but I know that will be an impulsive act.

I feel needy and yet want to be left alone

[BorderlineMess]

(((Tinkerbell))) I don't have any advice. Just wanted to let you know that you're not alone.

[Flooded]

Me too which is why I barely post anymore.

[kindachaotic]

(((((Tink))))) please be safe, you are loved here very much.
Know you're having a rough patch but your family loves & needs you.
This will pass, if someone really doesn't want you around it's their loss!
Chin up my dear, you are worth it.

I think that's a feeling we all share at one point or another...you and I have talked about it before and I've shared it with others. It's hateful, and it is BPD. Want to pull close yet push away... Hang in there. Everything passes in time. It's a hateful way to live sometimes, waiting for feelings to pass, but what else can you do? Hang in there!!

Thanks.

I am just being pathetic, It is almost 5:am here and I haven't slept at all again, Watched some TV instead to distract myself.

I wish that I could switch myself off

[BrokenNBeautiful]

Glad you talked about it.

Distractions are good, too.

You are not pathetic.

I also don't sleep well; insomnia s*cks. I am always tired.

I also feel like packing it in often, but now I am trying to walk thru my fear because the alternative is isolating and living in my self made h***.

Carol