i know the quizzes aren't a doctor's diagnosis or anything, but i took one for the borderline personality disorder and according to the results i have a fairly high score, meaning it's pretty likely i have it.

it's not so surprising but it scares me to have an actual name put on what i turn into when i'm having a bad day. it's horrible and terrifying and i feel like dying when i realize what i've done to myself or to my family members.

i've been to counseling but i'm scared to talk to people about being a threat to my kids because the counseling centers i've been to have to report any possible violence, which would mean i might lose my kids.

i know that it might be better to talk to a counselor about this but i'm just so scared. my husband works all day and we can't afford daycare so we couldn't afford me being carted off, as much as i think that might be better for me and my kids.

right now, we can't really afford counseling, either. i feel like it gets worse but i don't know what to do.

[greyclouds]

Hi and welcome, being diagnosed is very scary but it's also a relief.

You will be given the right therapy for what is happening.

I have kids too, and it can be hard on them.
As long as there not in any danger there is no reason why they would be taking away!

Also being diagnosed will help you to improve your emotions, which will only improve your mothering skills.

Good luck and keep us posted. I hope I helped a little
((Hugs))

[BrokenNBeautiful]

Welcome, I have bpd too; diagnosed in 2001.

It scares me too.

I also have trouble talking about my anger issues because I don't want to give ppl, esp professionals the impression that I am some criminal or psychopath.

Carol