[jacpeaceandlove]

I don't know how long i can take this anymore. all these combats i have in my head are draining me. I'm trying to be normal to contral my bpd. I want to stop thinking about suicide or self mutilation so much even if its doing good. It's killing me on the inside i want to keep fighting but i find it difficult to hang on, im losing strength. please help

Have you gotten involved with any kind of meditation or support group that can help? If you need some ideas on how to find one, feel free to contact me. You're not alone in your struggles. Take a little bit of comfort in the fact that you are among a group of people who understand, and as hard as it is right now and as painful as it becomes, remember that it always passes. I understand.....it seems forever, it's all-consuming, you're willing to do anything to make it stop, but as fast and hard as the feelings come they go away. Hold on for that and we'll hold on with you and help you until then.

[BrokenNBeautiful]

I am tired of my bpd too.

One day at a time. It can feel quite exhausting.

Why can't it just go away?

Carol

[jacpeaceandlove]

I really wish it would

[XAndromedaX]

I am also tired. Exhausted some days.

I often wish I could just get it together like everyone else seems to....

[hope4you]

Originally Posted by jacpeaceandlove

I don't know how long i can take this anymore. all these combats i have in my head are draining me. I'm trying to be normal to contral my bpd. I want to stop thinking about suicide or self mutilation so much even if its doing good. It's killing me on the inside i want to keep fighting but i find it difficult to hang on, im losing strength. please help

Life is a struggle for everyone even those without bpd. I have a hard time but my therapy has taught me some very good coping skills. Look into what Buddhist teach as well. Meditation has really helped. I know where your coming from, trust me. I live it every day. THere is always HOPE!

[jacpeaceandlove]

Meitation is very difficult for me due to my adhd, i cant focus and i cant sit still when im suppose to

[greentires4me]

I think every minute of self harming or suicide when is it going to happen when I keep going on and on in my head. its like a revolving door open or closed...very disconcerting. Even sitting here it triggers me to self harm but now with what and how...dilemmas. Little pieces of me are falling away into the unknown reality around me. Broken and bruised feeling tortured by my present and past. Future of the unknowns really does scare me all I know is I don't want to be here on this earth...or here in this apartment.