[Altinak]

I have BPD and Schizotypal PD. Yesterday I posted this on my fb.

"Why is it when you really need your closest friends around you, they never seem to make an effort.. Just realised when I was off work for 10 months, I never got one visit when I needed company but was too down to get out of bed... This hurts lol. "

I wrote this due the fact that I had been feeling very lonely, with the realisation that in the time that I have been really ill due to mental health that I had no visit from my closest friends.

My best friend then called me, as she was very hurt by this. She has been ill with mental health issues for years now, she doesn't get out the house very often because of it but she does go out to party and has her other friends over..

Writing this post triggerred her off and she started becoming very emotionally abusive, bringing up my past mistakes and calling me unappreciative. She did it so intensley that I ended up throwing my phone and breaking down in the hall way in hysterical tears and that takes a lot...

Even after that she told me she is the one who should be crying and I don't deserve to feel like that because it's me that hurt her, and that she wouldn't give me pity. It just was very intensive intergation to the point that I backed down and was very confused.

We have been friends for 10 years, and it feels like our friendship is almost finito. I feel very confused because I feel like I deserved the emotional beating :/ But I'm also very hurt because I would never ever mentally attack her the way she did to me.. Regardless of my past mistakes over the years.. She's made some too when it came to me.

I guess I'm just looking for re-assurance or something.. Idk.. It really feels like she had every right to break me emotionally last night :/ Like I'm just completely in the wrong.. And that I deserved it all.. I'm just feeling lost..

Any opinions would mean the world to me..

Thanks guys...

[Flooded]

I don't really have any advice but fb is the devil for those with mental issues.

[x_BabyG_x]

I dont quite understand why she went off the handle at this, it is because she thought you was not appreciating her being a friend?

give it a few days, let it cool off, try to explain. Time heals fall outs like this suck, especially when people get the wrong end of the stick! Approach it with an open mind about both peoples perspectives in mind. Hope you get this sorted soon!

[Altinak]

Thats what I tried to do yesterday and she just broke my soul.

[x_BabyG_x]

I think people react differently (without thinking of the concequences and without thinking if we are hurting others) when in the heat of the moment. Try taking a step back from the situation and leave it to fizzle for a while. Im really sorry you are hurt