[allme]

I have been replying a lot today and I don't know about you, but the things I wrote made sense to me but at the same time seem like complete rubbish? lol I mean, it makes sense to me but when you put it to paper it looks stupid. Or is that me being paranoid that others will think I am stupid and I am simply seeking reassaurance right now? Maybe I shouldn't over think it.....it is what it is...right?

I just don't want to be scared of replying or posting. I think that in this place we should feel completely safe. I used to not respond much in the bipolar forum scared of what ppl might think of me and think I am stupid (as I do have a funny way of thinking sometimes) but isn't the main point of a forum to talk and have it out? Share what we think? Problem is, I think toooo much! And sometimes ramble. Like now

This is also true IRL. I dare not sometimes speak what I think cause of fear of rejection or being laughed out. And then at the opposite end of the scale, when I am angry, I say what I like and upset people! Common theme runs through my life - no in between - either all one way or all the other!

[GeorgiaGirl413]

right there with you.

[unaluna]

Same for me, I think it's brilliant when I write it but if I look at it later, I'm like, who wrote this crap??! But then I have this comedy book from the 80's and there's this joke by Phyllis Diller that hardly even makes sense, and I keep it to remind myself that it doesnt have to be perfect all the time - it can still be helpful or useful or funny or sincere or whatever.

[Luvmydog]

Originally Posted by allme

I have been replying a lot today and I don't know about you, but the things I wrote made sense to me but at the same time seem like complete rubbish? lol I mean, it makes sense to me but when you put it to paper it looks stupid. Or is that me being paranoid that others will think I am stupid and I am simply seeking reassaurance right now? Maybe I shouldn't over think it.....it is what it is...right?

I commonly go through the posts in here, but rarely reply, due to the same reason. I know, however, that in many of today's posts, you have helped the person to whom you replied, and beyond that you have also helped me. Thank you.

I think an important thing to remember is that you took time out of your day to sit down and send people, who may be halfway across the world, your kindness and support.

That's a positive contribution.

Kudos to you and hugs from a fellow Brit

[x_BabyG_x]

I'm sure whatever you post on here how big or small will have someone reading it on the other side in gratitude towards you for giving the time and attention to reply to posts. Even with starting posts, i think the general is for the majority of us to feel exactly the same fear of posting - so you are not alone there!

I can however agree with you on real life interactions, ive felt the same for years and tend to keep quiet in social settings in fear of babble coming out of my mouth (again, a rejection issue for me!)

Be assured that your replies and posts are more than welcome on here, whatever you have to say (((hugs)))

[gayleggg]

I agree with Spockette. Your kindness and support mean a lot to the person you are writing to. I think on PC that everyone knows what it feels like to be laughed at and wouldn't laugh at others because we are all sensitive to it. It also goes like that saying "take what you like and leave the rest". Just post and be kind and you want have anyone laughing at you.
Gayle

I wouldn't worry about it. Most of what I say is probably complete rubbish too but I don't care most of the time because even if I'm full of crap, most likely so is everyone else With life and everything half the stuff we think or do is guess work and we just go through it all trying to figure it out as we go. sometimes something may seem "brilliant" and indeed it is at the time and later it can be just like "wtf was I thinking?" lol.

Think of it this way, regardless of how it comes out, if you're being honest on here and with yourself, that's what matters. With that we'll always be full of shiit sometimes and other times we'll be wonderfully insightful

Not only that, people here mostly will understand that we all make sense sometimes but other times we don't...

Originally Posted by allme

I have been replying a lot today and I don't know about you, but the things I wrote made sense to me but at the same time seem like complete rubbish? lol I mean, it makes sense to me but when you put it to paper it looks stupid. Or is that me being paranoid that others will think I am stupid and I am simply seeking reassaurance right now? Maybe I shouldn't over think it.....it is what it is...right?

I just don't want to be scared of replying or posting. I think that in this place we should feel completely safe. I used to not respond much in the bipolar forum scared of what ppl might think of me and think I am stupid (as I do have a funny way of thinking sometimes) but isn't the main point of a forum to talk and have it out? Share what we think? Problem is, I think toooo much! And sometimes ramble. Like now

This is also true IRL. I dare not sometimes speak what I think cause of fear of rejection or being laughed out. And then at the opposite end of the scale, when I am angry, I say what I like and upset people! Common theme runs through my life - no in between - either all one way or all the other!

Yes! that's why it's so important to get things out. to make sense of them. a lot of times, it sounds so good and rational in my head too, and when I get it out.... click click click goes the delete button trying to post something that actually makes sense.

[allme]

Aw thanks guys, you have all in your own way put me at such ease. Sometimes just need that reassuarance! And also that I am not judged. The fear of being judged keep me a recluse for a huge majority of the time. TIme spent at home so far is 3 and a half weeks. Have not stepped outside the door, My hubby walks the dogs and I order our shopping online so have no need to go out really unless its a pdoc appointment and even then I swell with anxiety!

Anyway just trying to say I need somewhere I can relax...even if it is within the cyber world.....it's a start right? And maybe being myself here will help me to be myself with ppl in my RL.

Thanks again, you're a bunch of stars!

[poptart316]

I find your posts very insightful and helpful, thank you!

I too worry that other people will think my posts are stupid, I actually spent an hour writing a response to a post, like I didn't even know where I wanted to go with it.. I was just rambling and I thought myself stupid for it so I just deleted it all. : /

I'm also the same way in real life, I'm terrified of speaking to people and am quiet most of the time, I feel more comfortable here though.

[allme]

Originally Posted by poptart316

I find your posts very insightful and helpful, thank you!

I too worry that other people will think my posts are stupid, I actually spent an hour writing a response to a post, like I didn't even know where I wanted to go with it.. I was just rambling and I thought myself stupid for it so I just deleted it all. : /

I'm also the same way in real life, I'm terrified of speaking to people and am quiet most of the time, I feel more comfortable here though.

Aw thanks!

Well I say lets go for it and just say what we think? Aslong as it is not hurtful to anyone who cares right? We all deserve to be who we are. I read an article on here about elderly close to death and one of their biggest regrets was not being themselves. Lets not have the same regret

Originally Posted by allme

Aslong as it is not hurtful to anyone who cares right?

Ahh but therein lies the problem. Ideallistically this is a good thing to think but thing is -- this is a BPD forum. That's probably one of the biggest obstacles to overcome - worrying so much about what others think in every aspect of life, including forums

[Fuzzybear]

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