[Altinak]

I had a psychiatry appt yesterday, and it wasn't with that stupid one who shouldn't even be a pdoc (yay!!) It was a woman x) She said she wouldn't bs me and asked if I was happy for her to be my pdoc but I was confused ;-;

After the last two times, I was convinced I was just going to be discharged again, but nope! They confirmed with be that I do have BPD/EUPD, which was actually quite a relief to know for certain because nobody had told me outright. I can begin to accept all aspects of the illness now, she said my bad dissociation, is from BPD and all this stuff and it made sense!

She is going to be sending me to distress tolerance first, before starting DBT, and I'm pretty sure there's a big waiting list for that anyway but now I don't know if it's just my paranoia or a validated feeling because I just kind of feel like she's shoving me off to do this thing all by myself, kind of DIY so she doesn't have to deal with me ;-;

Part of me knows this is stupid, because I do need to learn the techniques myself and stuff to be able to handle emotions that may come up during talking therapy, but I think just because I've been let down by the system before, that I'm all like yeah they don't actually want to deal with me, they want me to still do this all alone ;-;

Any thoughts would be greatly appreciated.

Hope yous are having a beautiful day.

[allme]

Hiya,

well all I read is all good if you ask me! You got a proper dx and they have set you on the right track for treatment! In no way do I think she is trying to 'get rid' of you...no not at all! She is doing what any good pdoc should do and that is referring you to the psychology department. Pretty standard too.

Remember, these feelings of her wanting to hand you off are just BPD feelings! Push them away and tell them 'no'!

Stay positive!