[Maranara]

I already wrote this in the update, but I guess I want more feedback than I'm going to get there, so here I am again. I feel like I'm just being selfish, but I'm just trying to make it here.....

I talked to one of my supervisors today. She said she didn't see how I could work job this so much; that she can't work more than two or three days without going crazy and has to take time off. She urged me to take the time off and said I wouldn't get in trouble for it and even gave me suggestions for other jobs...so it's now up to me to take it. The only thing holding me back is my own guilt...I need to let it go and do what I need to do for my health and sanity.

Sigh...I'm just not good at that I guess.

[allme]

Like I said in the other thread, slam that guilt and take the time that you need. Strength is not just carrying on but also when to take a step back and do what's right for you. There is no shame or guilt in that.

[GeorgiaGirl413]

Just remember that you have to take care of yourself. I can be very difficult at times. Know that you are loved and cared about.

Even your supervisor is advising you to take time off! Come on, swallow your pride and do this for you! Don't let it get too far that its too late There is no reason to be guilty. You're putting in far more hours than you need to, pat yourself on the back for that and give yourself a well earned rest.

YES. Kick that guilt to the curb and take the time off. I understand that guilt myself; I used to work right through lunch breaks because, I reasoned, we were so busy and understaffed an patients needed me. Well, hmmm, I eventually realized that I was the only one martyring myself for my patients; my coworkers certainly weren't going without their lunch breaks! It's because they recognized that, without taking care of themselves, they couldn't adequately take care of our patients (well...I'm sure some of them felt that way. Others probably just wanted lunch and didn't give a s***). Eventually, everyone's job suffers if they don't look out for themselves first.

Originally Posted by misskeena

YES. Kick that guilt to the curb and take the time off. I understand that guilt myself; I used to work right through lunch breaks because, I reasoned, we were so busy and understaffed an patients needed me. Well, hmmm, I eventually realized that I was the only one martyring myself for my patients; my coworkers certainly weren't going without their lunch breaks! It's because they recognized that, without taking care of themselves, they couldn't adequately take care of our patients (well...I'm sure some of them felt that way. Others probably just wanted lunch and didn't give a s***). Eventually, everyone's job suffers if they don't look out for themselves first.

This.. and adding to what Keena said here:

You're suffering from Workoholism. Maybe for different reasons than a lot of others but in the end the result is the same. Thing is, like in Keena's situation, if one keeps working themselves to death what good will you be to those that you're trying to be such a great service person to? If you end up screwing up your health for the high stress you put on yourself all the time and working too much in the end the people you are trying to help won't have you at all due to your being forced to take time off whether for sickness or a breakdown or something else. It's not healthy for you and I know your goal is to be a good employee, mother and wife and all those things rely on you being in good health - mentally and physically. You won't be able to do it forever this way... it's a road to destruction, even if your intentions are good it's still the same road.

[avlady]

I agree with allme and the others too.

[deelooted]

Maranara, I hope you can make it through this, otherwise... your boss might say what mine told me a couple of days ago- "if you were not quitting in a few weeks, I would have fired you long ago!". I just cannot handle a job, never have.

[TheRealFDeal]

Mara, your SUPV told you that you were working too much! Take that affirmation (from a supposedly healthy person, no less) and run with it! I know there's guilt that's not easy to throw to the curb, but just tell yourself you'll deal with the guilt later instead of telling yourself you shouldn't feel guilty. "Shoulds" and "shouldn'ts" are guilt-laden and are rarely helpful.