[Kl3b0rg]

Fiance just said I want a break. Maybe you should go stay at your mothers. I agree we need a break but I know myself. The second I leave I'm going to break up with her. she already gave me the ring back. I'm done. With everything. No health, no help, no love, no chance. **** everything.

[allme]

Originally Posted by Kl3b0rg

Fiance just said I want a break. Maybe you should go stay at your mothers. I agree we need a break but I know myself. The second I leave I'm going to break up with her. she already gave me the ring back. I'm done. With everything. No health, no help, no love, no chance. **** everything.

Oh no how awful So sorry Has anything happened to warrant this or is it out of the blue? Me and hubby have been on 'breaks' in the past and tbh they always did us good! But I can imagine the rejection and abandonment you are feeling right now. I wouldn't wish that on anyone.

Look, it could be ok, try not to have a melt down ok?

[Kl3b0rg]

We've had a horrible month every day I have had a headache and I have been intoleratingly miserable. I am making her life absolute garbage and I tell her this frequently. I give her eight million reasons to leave me because I'm so fked up and she says she never will and she loves me more than anything. So now I'm all ****ing surprised even though its my fault that I am driving her away. I have been trying to get help for years and I have never even spoken to a doctor of any kind except at the er and they label me a drug seeker.

[IndieVisible]

Your the Arizona guy with no free clinics? Yea, sounded like a rough ride for everyone. Sorry, hope things work out!

[Kl3b0rg]

That's me. Thanks.

[allme]

Originally Posted by Kl3b0rg

We've had a horrible month every day I have had a headache and I have been intoleratingly miserable. I am making her life absolute garbage and I tell her this frequently. I give her eight million reasons to leave me because I'm so fked up and she says she never will and she loves me more than anything. So now I'm all ****ing surprised even though its my fault that I am driving her away. I have been trying to get help for years and I have never even spoken to a doctor of any kind except at the er and they label me a drug seeker.

I understand. I also give my hubby reasons to leave me and often push him to his limit

! Maybe all she needs is a little time out. Focus on giving her reason to be with you rather than not. We all have our limits and maybe hers were pushed over the top Give her what she wants for now and in the meantime try to be kind to yourself. Whatever happens you will deal with it ok?

[Kl3b0rg]

There IS no reason for her to stay with me. That's the problem.

[Kl3b0rg]

I'm am extremely worried what I will do to myself without her. She keeps me from harming myself.

[allme]

No, YOU keep yourself from harming yourself not her. It's you that ultimately that has to make that choice and the choice is still yours. This is going to be so very difficult as you have lost one of your main support systems but you CAN get through this! One way or another you will get through this.

[Kl3b0rg]

It happened. Yesterday was the day I was supposed to get married. Instead, I lost every thing in less than 24hours. Absolutely crushed in every way imaginable.

[Lmats]

I'm so sorry to hear all of this! I understand the frustration behind the whole "I won't ever leave you" and "I will love you forever" thing; my ex used to say the same to me then he left me because he felt my suicidal nature was my method of manipulating him.

Please, if you ever feel like hurting yourself, come on here and chat with us! We understand! You're a lot stronger than you think!

I'm so sorry to hear also, what you're going thru and have been there myself so I can totally relate.

[Kl3b0rg]

I brought it all on myself and I know that. For some reason I am one hundred percent, utterly shocked. I took a healthy strong person, and leveled her life.

[Kl3b0rg]

She will not give me back my kitten, or my two very expensive snakes. I don't "deserve them". I sent her a very long email stating what I feel is the truth now that I have had a couple days to think about everything. I closed the door between me and her forever. I want to say I ****ING hate her guts and wish bad things to happen. But a very small part of me (the very small part that can love) will always love her. At the end of the day, I just want my cat back.