This probably sounds odd I don't know.

Real life help I find it hard to ask for but just a few backs I hit a crisis and needed help, I have a CPN (community psychiatric nurse) She helped me to get a therapist which is fantastic but now I have the help I don't want it I feel too needy, My CPN says to call her whenever I need her? I did that the other day when I felt suicidal but I felt her words were just patronizing so when I got off the phone I thought to myself "Who needs you?" She is coming to visit me tomorrow to see how thing are, I don't want to be honest with her I hate feeling needy and talking how I am feeling to her after the other day She is good in other ways especially getting me into therapy as my T is very experienced.

Originally Posted by Liverbird

This probably sounds odd I don't know.

Real life help I find it hard to ask for but just a few backs I hit a crisis and needed help, I have a CPN (community psychiatric nurse) She helped me to get a therapist which is fantastic but now I have the help I don't want it I feel too needy, My CPN says to call her whenever I need her? I did that the other day when I felt suicidal but I felt her words were just patronizing so when I got off the phone I thought to myself "Who needs you?" She is coming to visit me tomorrow to see how thing are, I don't want to be honest with her I hate feeling needy and talking how I am feeling to her after the other day She is good in other ways especially getting me into therapy as my T is very experienced.

the feeling of being needy equates to feeling weak, "less than" or not independent. it's natural for you to have an aversion to that feeling but what it comes down to is whether or not you really are needy. Thing is just because you benefit from others' help, in any way, does not make you needy at all. Everyone needs a leg up, encouragment, someone to talk to.. I'm sure there is plenty you can do on your own. Remember those things the next time you're feeling like you're needy.

[greentires4me]

at least you have someone like that to count on when you are feeling blue or at a space in your life when someone is there to advocate on your behalf what you do need. The needy feeling will go away over time as you gain your independence back with the CPN their by your side.

I wish I had a CPN...never heard of them until I came here..so your lucky to have something I don't have.

[BlueInanna]

I can really relate and so sorry you're feeling this way. I am not good at asking for help. I want to be able to be well on my own. I'm so sensitive and not comfortable opening up and showing the real me whoever that is. Usually leads to disappointment such lonely and confusing feelings. It would probably be uncomfortable but maybe you could tell her how you felt about her response that maybe it felt ingenuine and patronizing. Maybe that would help her to get to know you better and know how to better help you. Helping you is supposed to be her area of expertise.

[allme]

Hi, I understand too and am soooo needy! Not as bad right now but when those down days come, I am as needy as they come! Oh my don't even mention CPN, mine is useless in a crisis!

[Fuzzybear]

I know what you mean about hating feeling needy

As for cpn, I won't go there

[cluelessgluten]

That has always been a weakness for me. I can't ask for help. No matter how badly I am failing I will continue to do it on my own because I have to prove to myself I don't need anything from anyone. I think this goes way back to childhood abandoned by parents and I just have this need to prove I don't need them or anyone. I would never tell them that. I know the feeling.