[dubblemonkey]

it's everywhere I am it's inside and completely outside me!

I feel so medically regulated I forget what feeling well is supposed to be...

I am so close to ditchin' all the chemical hopes for the insane nopes...

too many antipsychotics are flooding my brain

I forget what life tastes like

...what love feels like

I forget myself... that's the worse bit

functioning means I miss out!

that's a malfunction to me

[technigal]

I am sorry that you are having such a hard time and that your meds are making you feel like you are not yourself. Up until now I still felt partly like me, not the rages and such but I felt partly like me. Now not so much. Not sure if it is my new meds and I just need to give it some time or what.

[allme]

You just have to do what's best for you! If you would feel worse off them, then it's worth sticking with them....

[venusss]

Originally Posted by allme

You just have to do what's best for you! If you would feel worse off them, then it's worth sticking with them....

or vice versa.

[dubblemonkey]

that's ok

it just seems like the more I am me the harder life tries to prevent it...

I am fighting all the time

not to survive

but to cope with being me alive