[Gingersnapsmom]

I'm staying right safe and tight in this group. I just joined a group called BP social something and then looked around and realized it was bipolar and not borderline personality I knew I was in the wrong place when someone posted something about how "it" can be awesome at times (or something like that). I don't think ANYthing about Borderline is awesome...ever. So, I unjoined.

Today my brother (this is an adult person) upset me and I can't stop going over and over and over the event in my mind (my perception of it). This is one of the things that bothers me most in my life! Some thing (maybe even a little teeny thing) someone says will bother me and I will dwell on it and keep obsessing with it and I don't want to but I cannot get it out of my mind! I even played a video game with my son and had NO idea what was going on because I was replaying what my brother said/did. This ruined my whole damn afternoon and evening even though I know it doesn't even matter. UGH.

[River11]

I hear ya!
Doesn't it suck how someone can be completely offhand about something toward us, and we get our whole day/week whatever ruined by it ...even after, it comes on at the slightest memory trigger, playing the same thought and emotion track ...
Whenever possible, I try to give my mind something else to play with or to work on.

[hawaii04]

So been there and go there . . . I am I don't even know what the word is that my mind is so in control of the JUNK that it's out of control. And the trying soooo hard to stop the thoughts that are destructive is impossible, no matter what I tell myself. These things often don't really matter and yet, they are HUGE and adhere like fungi on a rock. Trying to busy myself seems to help ~ I still think about IT but it does lose some bearing power.

[wiltedxdaisy]

Hi Gingersnapsmom,

How are you feeling today? (Sorry I am late to reply!)

I know the feeling of ruminating over things in my head, even just small things, and the more I think about them, the more upset or angry or depressed or anxious, etc, I get. When I need a break from my mind, I pick up a good book and just let myself get lost in another world. Sometimes my thoughts try to get through, but I just keep reading and eventually the book pulls me in.

Hope you are feeling better!

[Gingersnapsmom]

I'm still going over things in my head...but not as bad as yesterday. Now I have unfortunately moved on to the black/white. I am finding fault with everything brother does....not just the way he acted yesterday. His behavior has bothered me for a while though...I do have to work this afternoon so I am glad for the distraction. I talked to my "good" brother last night (term. cancer) and he is coming up to see me Monday <3 Unfortunately the chemo has stopped working for him and they are switching medicines and then that's all folks. I am so thankful to have my 2 sons!!! Thanks for asking

[Gingersnapsmom]

I am a book worm. I LOVE my kindle and read constantly. I just finished the latest Tami Hoag and now have started another Lisa Gardner book. FBI, thrillers, mysteries and courtroom drama (Grisham's stuff) are my favorites.