[crabbypatty]

I have always tried to steer clear of medication. I have taken it in the past mainly anti d's , the longest being venlanflaxine for about 3 years. I never liked it and it caused so many side effects.

I was diagnosed with bpd about 2.5 years ago up till then i just thought i was depressed but even then i never was sure as i didn't identify with the criteria and when i read about bpd i thought yes this is what it is.

Anyway this last year has been a very painful year. I have a good therapist who i see twice a week. I have been opening up about alot of stuff that happened to me and facing a lot of demons. My therapist warned me that i will feel pretty bad for a while and the pain is part of the healing. The last few few months have been the worst. I have been trying to get through but its so bad. I struggle with self harm and was doing well and being strong. I recently got my heart broke also and it has just made things worse and i ended up self harming as could not take the emotional pain and needing to relieve it even for 5 mins.

I am not thinking about medication , i really don't want to take it but now with the pain of the heartbreak i not sure how to get through. My therapist who does not usually promote medication even thinks that it may help just for short time to help get me through.

My doctor has given me 25mg seroquel which i take now and again to send me to sleep but i am thinking bout taking it every day for a while.

I just wanted some thoughts and opinions, do you think it may help. Im scared bout the side effects and trying to come off it.

[iScottM]

Hi-
I don't like side effects either.
But I find there are times I need the relief of anti-depressants for sleep and just to keep pace with work, family, etc....