[Bubbles&Buttercup]

Finally got correctly diagnosed about a month ago, Borderline Personality Disorder (Plus Depression and Anxiety, but I already knew that)

I'm feeling really pleased to know what's wrong with me and to hopefully be able to work on fixing it but for now I'm just lurking about trying to understand if everyone else with it is feeling like I am.

When you first found out did you feel like you had no idea which emotions were real? I don't know who I genuinely like, because I've hated and loved everyone I know, which feeling is the true one?

As lame as this is, I wish I knew someone who was dealing with the same thing.

I'd like to hope I stick around on here, but knowing me I'll probably not hear from anyone and decide to bail.

-Beth

[technigal]

Originally Posted by Bubbles&Buttercup

Finally got correctly diagnosed about a month ago, Borderline Personality Disorder (Plus Depression and Anxiety, but I already knew that)

I'm feeling really pleased to know what's wrong with me and to hopefully be able to work on fixing it but for now I'm just lurking about trying to understand if everyone else with it is feeling like I am.

When you first found out did you feel like you had no idea which emotions were real? I don't know who I genuinely like, because I've hated and loved everyone I know, which feeling is the true one?

As lame as this is, I wish I knew someone who was dealing with the same thing.

I'd like to hope I stick around on here, but knowing me I'll probably not hear from anyone and decide to bail.

-Beth

I have often questioned which emotions were the correct ones, even before I was diagnosed. I understood that the rollercoaster of emotions was not normal but I attributed it to my depression. Now I know differently and am trying to understand my emotions.

Hope you stick around. There is a lot of support to be had here.

[facingdemons]

I have a really hard time figuring out how I really feel about people. I go from loving to hating someone in a few hours. I never know what's real.

I was also just diagnosed, I had been previously diagnosed with bipolar and anxiety, but that was not entirely correct.

Stick around for awhile. I've only been here a few days, but already feel like I'm not alone.

[lynn808]

Originally Posted by Bubbles&Buttercup

Finally got correctly diagnosed about a month ago, Borderline Personality Disorder (Plus Depression and Anxiety, but I already knew that)

I'm feeling really pleased to know what's wrong with me and to hopefully be able to work on fixing it but for now I'm just lurking about trying to understand if everyone else with it is feeling like I am.

When you first found out did you feel like you had no idea which emotions were real? I don't know who I genuinely like, because I've hated and loved everyone I know, which feeling is the true one?

As lame as this is, I wish I knew someone who was dealing with the same thing.

I'd like to hope I stick around on here, but knowing me I'll probably not hear from anyone and decide to bail.

-Beth

Hi Beth,
Welcome and good luck.... I was diagnosed in November...am still confused and working it out. Yes, it does feel better when you make sense of it. I think it is a new road to be explored and new experiences to be put into our memory bank to be used better in our brains...don't know if this makes sense to you...wish you luck on your journey to wellness...hope to heart back from you as you learn to navigate this sight...friend me!!! thanks!!

[Wingnut13]

Originally Posted by Bubbles&Buttercup

Finally got correctly diagnosed about a month ago, Borderline Personality Disorder (Plus Depression and Anxiety, but I already knew that)

I'm feeling really pleased to know what's wrong with me and to hopefully be able to work on fixing it but for now I'm just lurking about trying to understand if everyone else with it is feeling like I am.

When you first found out did you feel like you had no idea which emotions were real? I don't know who I genuinely like, because I've hated and loved everyone I know, which feeling is the true one?

As lame as this is, I wish I knew someone who was dealing with the same thing.

I'd like to hope I stick around on here, but knowing me I'll probably not hear from anyone and decide to bail.

-Beth

Hi Beth
I was just diagnosed myself. But in the short time I have been in this community I have found lots of understanding and support. So glad I found this site. It is a great place to get advice or just to vent.
I have felt that way most of my life. One minute I love someone then next minute I hate them. I can walk into a room full of strangers and if any of them are laughing I instantly believe they are laughing at me. If someone gets even the slightest bit upset with I think they hate me. I can be just sitting watching tv and suddenly i'm crying and I don't know why. It is very frustrating.
You are among friends here
I take it you are an Ozzy fan. Love that song. I can truly identify with
it.
Welcome

[Bubbles&Buttercup]

Thanks for all the support! It's really great knowing people feel the same.
My emotions have always been this bad but I'm just paying more attention to it now, I'm not in any more control than I was before though. Sitting at home feeling upset because I realised a few of my mates are hanging out at the pub (Which is fine) but this other girl is there and I'm not and I apparently hate her at the moment and feel that I'm obviously better than she is so it's stupid that I'm not told first. Now I assume someone didn't want me there. I know deep down that it's a load of **** but it doesn't change how I feel.

Oh and Wingnut13, it is Ozzy! Glad someone recognises it.

[Bubbles&Buttercup]

Ohhh, I can't swear on here?

Welcome to PC, and glad you were finally diagnosed correctly.
When I first found out I was relieved that I finally had an answer, but I had so many questions.
As for which emotion is real, I'd say they all are. In that moment, you really do love or hate the person. Atl east that's how it is for me.

[iScottM]

Originally Posted by Bubbles&Buttercup

Finally got correctly diagnosed about a month ago, Borderline Personality Disorder (Plus Depression and Anxiety, but I already knew that)

I'm feeling really pleased to know what's wrong with me and to hopefully be able to work on fixing it but for now I'm just lurking about trying to understand if everyone else with it is feeling like I am.

When you first found out did you feel like you had no idea which emotions were real? I don't know who I genuinely like, because I've hated and loved everyone I know, which feeling is the true one?

As lame as this is, I wish I knew someone who was dealing with the same thing.

I'd like to hope I stick around on here, but knowing me I'll probably not hear from anyone and decide to bail.

-Beth

+1
I could have written the above.
I never know (or knew) which feelings are real. Or even which 'me' was real.
What works me so far is trying to just accept whatever I am feeling.
It's actually quite difficult for me to do, but I found so far it helps to acknowledge whatever I am feeling (even if it feels phony).

[beloiseau]

Emotions are hard! I have a hard time deciding whether I like someone or if they bother me too much. I have a hard time knowing whether I'm feeling the correct emotion for a situation. I have a hard time separating my emotions from my identity. You are not alone!! Emotional dysregulation is the hallmark of BPD.