[Elektra_]

my sis waned to go to shopping to buy some gifts and my mother old her i could go with her. i went and i wish i didnt. my father her his credit card supposedly for us to buy whatever we wanted for us as gift from him. she bought his great stylish coat... expensive one. "i was like u gona take it? she said of course he said we could buy whatever". but tha doesnt apply to me. hes sick of paying of my **** and i dont even tell him he has to pay a document for he car that is due end of this month. so basically i didnt buy anything o myself and she said here was a shoe house near her house that wasn expensive. so after she bought her gift and he gift i think is for bf we wen there. guess what was still expensive so i didn buy anyhing. shes like u not going to buy anything?'' i said no if i knew this would sill be expensive i wouldnt have come. she said oh he said we could buy. i told her no, he says whatever he wants but then he throws iit to my face and started crying. i was even more sad caz i see now she had a new bf. when we were buy she kept saying HE... i didnt even know that. so i felt like **** im just not entitled to a ****ing hing. im jus gona die alone. i jus dont wanna ****ing be here anymore. i just need o ****ing die. can i jus fucing kill myself. here is nothing for me here. im just nobody

[Elektra_]

thanks for nothing. can a mod delete this thread? thanks

[Side of the Angels]

Sorry you're going through this. And sorry no one said anything t you. I'm here. I hope ur ok. I hope the feelings passed and you got to a mental place that is safe.

[Trippin2.0]

Idk what I could say that may help.

I really hope you feel better soon.

[GeorgiaGirl413]

Elektra, when people post things like this (so full of pain) sometimes it's difficult for the rest of us to respond. Also, you rightly put a trigger icon, but I suspect that means that lots of folks might not read it. Sorry you are feeling so bad. Hope it's better soon.

[Elektra_]

doesnt matter. actually nothing matters and i shouldnt expect much from this. thanks anyway

[Angel of Bedlam]

I hope you don't keep pushing people away who want to be there for you. That's a very lonely place. Embrace the feedback given. This too shall pass. Hang in therem

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I know all about people who do things for you, then never stop guilting you about it. That's so irritating and upsetting.
I know your feelings were hurt and it was upsetting, but if you know he's going to throw it in your face you probably did the right thing that will cause the least amount of conflict by not getting a gift.
It sounds like you feel as though your father plays favorites? I know all about that too.
Hang in there, you are not alone.

[Elektra_]

my sis decided would be cool to join me in my bedroom and received a call from bf.. seriously somebody just kill me! am i ****ing obligated to hear that ****??? i should be a *****.. the *****s are the ones with profit

[Elektra_]

that ****ing ***** is a total ***** and has already a new bf lololol this world is completely ****ed up seriously. this ****ing world isnt for decent people nah those are the ones entitled to ****ing nothing and get screwed over thats all. and im obligated to hear those convos lololol i shouldn have started talking to her at all after all **** she did. but im the ****ing dumb one lololol merry ****ing xmas.. mine is being one hell of xmas so hilarious

[Truth in Ruin]

Originally Posted by Elektra_

my sis decided would be cool to join me in my bedroom and received a call from bf.. seriously somebody just kill me! am i ****ing obligated to hear that ****??? i should be a *****.. the *****s are the ones with profit

Umm... what?

[Elektra_]

what what?

[Elektra_]

soo great going to T and she acts like a ***** caz ur really upset, doesnt let u swear and threatens to end he appoint caz ur quite mad. my T is s.hit, incompetent and makes her best to criticize me.

[Truth in Ruin]

Originally Posted by Elektra_

soo great going to T and she acts like a ***** caz ur really upset, doesnt let u swear and threatens to end he appoint caz ur quite mad. my T is s.hit, incompetent and makes her best to criticize me.

in.com.pe.tent = not having or showing the necessary skills to do something successfully.

I'm so sorry your therapist is incompetent. I hope you can find a therapist who has, or is willing to show the necessary skills to do something successfully.

It sounds like you need a hug... but I'll just make you a bunny rabbit instead.

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Feel gooder?

[Elektra_]

ty cant change t caz this one is for free and when i didnt tell her i wanted to change while back they said or u suck it up or u leave... sooo yeah. im not even entitled to have help

[Bubbles&Buttercup]

I'm not going to say any inspirational, happy times ******** to you. We've all heard it before and I know that at least for me it doesn't help, it just makes me angry.
I guess try to remember that a lot of people are self absorbed, but I know that a lot of the time I tend to be judging them way more harshly than they actually deserve.

Listen to some loud music, scream/yell the words along to it, occasionally it helps to get some of the **** out in a moderately healthy way.

I do hope you feel a little better soon.

[Bubbles&Buttercup]

Oh and bad therapists...story of my ****ing life!
It shouldn't be so hard to find a good one!

[Elektra_]

dreading tonight... once again getting Together pretending we are a family. b.itch sis home. then shes going out. i stay home with my parents (what a great company i must say, NOT). they watch he end of this idiotic program, like big brother. i have to suck it up and basically count the time till ****ing midnight comes. btw my *** father just came to my room to piss me he **** off. when the ****er dies, SERIOUSLY??? WHEN DO I HAVE PEACE AT LEAST??? hopefully i die in 2014

[Truth in Ruin]

Originally Posted by Elektra_

dreading tonight... once again getting Together pretending we are a family. b.itch sis home. then shes going out. i stay home with my parents (what a great company i must say, NOT). they watch he end of this idiotic program, like big brother. i have to suck it up and basically count the time till ****ing midnight comes. btw my *** father just came to my room to piss me he **** off. when the ****er dies, SERIOUSLY??? WHEN DO I HAVE PEACE AT LEAST??? hopefully i die in 2014

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