[porcelain_pain]

So I sometimes think I may have BP II along with BPD because of my mood cycles, but I do too many drugs to be able to know what's natural in my brain anyway. I did a bunch of drugs 1.5 weeks ago and the hangover was horrible I went into an awful depression. The drug hangover is over now and I am not feeling so negative anymore. I went from sleeping all the time, a lot to sleeping pretty normally and getting things done. One thing I am starting to notice is these patterns of obsessive compulsive thinking and attention deficit when things are more in the "positive". When I am depressed I really don't care about things and don't feel much other than despair. But when I am not depressed, I can't seem to keep my head on straight in a totally different way. My mind flocks from idea to idea, I plan and organize like crazy, I start thinking about all the cool things I want to do and how I can start doing them, and I get way overstimulated/excitable/anxious. Sometimes I obsess over one concept, idea, goal, etc to the point where it's not passion-fueled productivity anymore and it just hurts my brain and I feel too revved-up to sleep properly. Other times my mind just bounces all over the place. I have so many interests, goals, passions, dreams etc that I am either completely numb to due to depression, or they're overflowing my mind. I know I'm repeating myself here, I haven't put this into words before and trying to figure out the best way to explain.

I am wondering if anyone out there can relate to this and what you guys notice about yourselves in relation to this. It is really confusing for me!

[Travelinglady]

Actually, having bipolar and BPD as dual diagnoses is not uncommon, so it certainly could be the case.

I don't have OCD or ADHD, though, so I can't speak to that issue.

[Mustkeepjob32]

I know that one night of getting drunk messes me and my meds up for like two weeks at least. I can tell it wreaks havoc with my stability.