[detachedangst]

How do you make this work and make money??!! My bpd has got out of control with out much reason 2 months ago. There is no end in sight and my family NEEDS me to work. I haven't worked in three weeks. I was hospitalized part of that time. I don't know, I just dont know when or if I will be able to go back to work. The thing is i love my job, but just cant do it right now. I just needed someone to listen/read my rant.

[gayleggg]

I hear you. Sometimes it hard to do something we even if we enjoy it. Have you spoken to your doctor? He might have some suggestions.

Glad you felt you could come here to rant. Sometimes it helps just to get the frustration out. I hope you feel better soon. Keep posting.

[serolod]

Originally Posted by detachedangst

How do you make this work and make money??!! My bpd has got out of control with out much reason 2 months ago. There is no end in sight and my family NEEDS me to work. I haven't worked in three weeks. I was hospitalized part of that time. I don't know, I just dont know when or if I will be able to go back to work. The thing is i love my job, but just cant do it right now. I just needed someone to listen/read my rant.

So sorry This is my biggest fear! I suppose you just take it one day at a time and focus on getting better. I'm not much help but I know how you feel.

[Fuzzybear]

[haleylaurel]

i don't know how i will ever be able to hold down a job.

[ifst5]

I guess the short answer would be i don't - i've been pretty sick since i was a young adult and now my physical health is going down the toilet as well so the chances of me actually doing something i love or having success is slim. I've not worked in what.....3/4 years? Luckily i'm from a country that doesn't punish people for ill health (though generally we're pretty much ignored) but either situation isn't ideal, i feel totally purposeless and that just compounds the frustration i have at my situation.

My practical advice would be to speak to a good Doctor and see what they suggest about the possibility of longer term sick leave and what options there are to assist with your financial situation. Is there some computer/telephone work you could do from home to bring in a bit of cash to tie you over? Sorry i can't be of more help but i'm not in the states

[Vegfaery]

Wow, I guess I should feel lucky that my NPD and BPD do not keep me from holding down a job. I cannot work full time as I quickly feel overwhelmed, but that has more to do with adrenal fatigue than symptoms of any disorders. My NPD and BPD are really affecting my relationship with my partner though, especially around ovulation when my PMDD kicks in.

[trying2survive]

Originally Posted by detachedangst

How do you make this work and make money??!! My bpd has got out of control with out much reason 2 months ago. There is no end in sight and my family NEEDS me to work. I haven't worked in three weeks. I was hospitalized part of that time. I don't know, I just dont know when or if I will be able to go back to work. The thing is i love my job, but just cant do it right now. I just needed someone to listen/read my rant.

i had to go into business for myself..i was a terrible employee..constantly quitting or getting fired..i must have had about 100 jobs over the years ( or at least it felt like it).

something happened i didn't like i would walk or do something to get myself fired!

[Kimaya]

**hugs,hugs,hugs**

I survive by mere happenstance sometimes I think. And the kindness of others. When I go through what you are going through and begin the 'destruction' of my life.... it seems like nothing will ever be ok again and that I will have burned so many bridges, destroyed my last chances... somehow I am still there after its over though.

I take after my father's BPD with the survival thing I guess. Every year I get a little better at facing down that cliff and not stepping off. I wish I had some good story or words, other than to say I sure know what you are going through and I am sorry it is so bad for you. You have to hang in there for yourself.

This is one episode and it will end. Your life will go on after this. It might be different - a different job or a different place, different problems, but you will be there.

edit - I did actually get a short term leave once (recently) when I was out of weeks, and then eventually months, this ended up being so hard to do, but I did it. But do contact your HR if you can, and your doctor. GL

[Verity81]

I was hospitalised last January and didn't return to work until this May. I got support from my Union and the mental health charity MIND with regards to work and attending sickness meetings. The occupational health dr was great too.
Deff speak to HR and your doctor. Also look to getting a mental health advocate from a local charity.
I was so scared that I'd never be able to return to work but I did it and I did a phased return for 6 weeks gradually building up my hours.
During the time I was off I got as much support as possible, I attended a day hospital for 4 weeks then attended local mental health groups as well as starting DBT.
After we fall it's very possible to get back up again!

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[detachedangst]

Originally Posted by Verity81

I was hospitalised last January and didn't return to work until this May. I got support from my Union and the mental health charity MIND with regards to work and attending sickness meetings. The occupational health dr was great too.
Deff speak to HR and your doctor. Also look to getting a mental health advocate from a local charity.
I was so scared that I'd never be able to return to work but I did it and I did a phased return for 6 weeks gradually building up my hours.
During the time I was off I got as much support as possible, I attended a day hospital for 4 weeks then attended local mental health groups as well as starting DBT.
After we fall it's very possible to get back up again!

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After we fall it is possible to get back up again. My new mantra.
Thank you